MELVIN; king of his life.

2006-09-17T17:30:00.000+08:00

MOVED TO:

www.xanga.com/bmsloveme

Blogger better don't eat up any entries!

2006-08-10T23:47:00.000+08:00

Blogger can be such a pain in the ass at times. It conveninently consumed 1 entry two days ago and 1 more entry this morning! Please don't do it to me again, I plead for your mercy blogger.

The outing with the BMS on Sunday was as usual, GREAT! Those photos taken at Marche will last a lifetime, my friends. You guys never fail to make me happy, ALWAYS!

Had investiture for Student Leaders 2 days ago and somehow I just felt a little surge of pride after reciting the pledge with more energy than usual. Had the sports carnival immediately after the investiture and stupid Dino got me in high spirits after the endless cheering we did for Rono house which ranked second this year! Headed to ice-skating with some of Jason's classmates and Huyu. I didn't fall and the caterpillars were great! Yeah, I witnessed the birth of a best friend and the relegation of a friend to an ex friend, right Huyu?

It's such a busy week ahead! There's SL camp from Friday to Sunday, Econs test on Monday, ushering duties on Thursday and the official opening of the LEP classrooms on Saturday! Thursday there will be a suspension of lessons for my class and yes, finally can use the LEP classrooms!

And tomorrow is the release of common test results. I don't want. Sigh.

ANYWAY THE UPDATE ENDS HERE. Blogger better don't eat up entries. PLEASE.

COMMON TESTS ARE OVER!

2006-08-04T11:03:00.000+08:00

HELLO OLLEH!

Common test falls on Tuesday and Thursday for me and it's over already! No need to feel excited at all cos there're still many torturous rounds to come but I'm just relieved it's over FOR NOW. To my friends taking History later, good luck!

Had Maths in the morning and Econs in the afternoon on Tuesday. Maths wasn't that difficult as Miss Foo had described to us but no doubt, it's extremely tedious to expand one part of a question using one page of a paper. Think econs was all right but not expecting much.

Had BOTH Chinese Lit and English Lit on Thursday. I REALLY studied A LOT for my Chinese Lit so I hope the results would reciprocate my effort please! I used to either fail or subpass my Chinese is Term 2. ): English Lit was as usual. There's no definite answer anyway so everyone will pass if you write reasonable answers.

And that's that.

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After English Lit paper, I went to meet Huyu (Qi Jun) in town with the intention to watch Lake House but we missed the most approriate timing so we didn't get to watch it! How mood dampening man.

Feeling dejected and hungry, we decided to eat but as usual we couldn't decide where to eat so as usual, we decide by FLIPPING A COIN! It's seriously our trademark but sometimes flipping a coin isn't a good idea cos we ate at this Hong Kong Xiao Chi which charged us at an exhorbitant price when they served us dishes of SHIT.

Next, we headed to B-something Village which is the old Marche in Heeren to eat my waffle with caramel banana and ice cream but the stupid bimbo don't want to eat. We went to NYDC after which to drink something the bimbo was craving for.

HIGHLIGHT!

Gary and Pei Rong who was in JJ for 1st 3 months saw us in NYDC so they sat down with us to eat! It's so nice for 4 people from 4 different schools to sit down together to reminisce the past in JJ! There's really so much to miss of 1st 3 months! THOSE WERE THE DAYS WHEN I CAN PON ECONS LECTURE. THOSE WERE THE DAYS WHEN I THOUGHT LIU FEN WAS NOT A BITCH.

And Hu Hu, Pei Rong and I had to chase after bus 77. Like what's new when there's Hu Hu around. SURE NEED TO CHASE BUSES.

How a wonderful surprise it was yesterday!

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Actually I need not attend school today but 2.30 got some deng mi discussion and 4 got invesiture rehearsal. I MUST NOT PON THE DENG MI DISCUSSION. MUST ENDURE!

August's really a hectic month and there're so much to look forward to as well. Got the opening of LEP classrooms, Investiture, SL camp and Xue Shan Fei Hu talk. It'll be fun-filled BUT THERE'S PW!

I'M GOING TO BURN THE HAIR OF ALL THE PW TEACHERS LAH.

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An ending for every beginning.
Courage breeds when there's fear.
It just means a lot more.

i miss my old friends, really.

2006-07-20T22:10:00.000+08:00

Class, let's recap what we've learnt. (I hear this sentence 6000 times when I'm in my beloved Mr Ho's tutorials)

I had a BLASTING time with the BMS (Jiaxin, Richalynn and Sean) last Saturday; really BLASTING! Jiaxin never fails to entertain me with her bimbotic antics and flair for Mathematics at Pastamania. What a silly moley mole mole!

JX: Eh, your's add up to $12.80 so $15-$12.80=$3 something.

ME: Kinda $15-12.80 can get $3+ leh ah mole!

JX (laughs): OH YA HOR! So it's...... $2.80!

ME: -.-"

JX (embarrassed): HAHAHAHAHA! So what's $15-$12.80 ah?

Headed to the Cathay after our lunch and I set my eyes on the green Adidas jacket which costs $109! I really want it man! Travelled back to DORBY GHAUT (lol!!!!!) to meet Dino to go for her church's event and was enriching but still, no intent to convert my faith for now. We ended off the day with dinner at Lau Pat Sat which was really great!

A long time since I met up with the BMS and every moment spent with them is truly a bliss! Bimbotic actions, dirty talks, ogling, laughing and sarcastic remarks never fail to make me beam with joy! I love you guys!

Kelly & Zelly! (WAHAHA!!!!!)

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Had Parents-Teacher meeting yesterday and Liu Fen's so troublesome to want to see EVERY parent. Stupid bitch.

First up was Mr Ho and surprisingly, he talked about everything under the sun with my mum except my progress in Economics. IDIOT. That day, I broke into a VERY VERY VERY serious laughing fits for like half an hour when Mr Ho pronounced "blue line" as "bull line" and "equilibrium" as "ekuibium".

Coincidentally bumped into Mr Lee Wen Siao and he initiated to talk to my mum and I was so afraid that he's going to condemn for failing so miserably in Chinese Lit in the 1st 2 tests but it turned out that he praised me for being hardworking! So unexpected, especially when he said I'm the weakest in the whole LEP cluster during term 2.

Beloved Liu Fen was next and she just told my mum truckload of useless trash that will prove to be of no use to my studies and yay; my mum couldn't care less about her too! I really hate it when Liu Fen is indirectly covering up for Chen Ting and she expects us to find Mr Lai immediately when a problem arises. PLEASE USE YOUR BRAIN LIU FEN, YOU REALLY NEED TO OKAY! That bum Chen Ting has broken SOOOOO MUCH promises in whatever he do which is why he's precisely ostracized by the class. That's like so much flaws I can pick in him and 1 very obvious is his HUGE nose that stretches from his left cheek to right cheek man!

Anyway my term 2 results:

Chinese Lang & Lit- D
Econs: B
Lit: C
Maths: A
GP: B (I got 69! TSKKKKK!)

Actually quite disappointed by my results and I got this feeling my grades for Econs and Maths will slip really a lot fopr the coming CT in less than 2 weeks! How depressing. How stressful.

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Been doing a lot of stupid forfeits with Chen Cheng, Dino and Zhao Yu while playing Cai Quan. It's so fun to play Cai Quan during breaks! Stupid dino attempted to pour water on me during PW lecture today!

But maybe all of us are in L1 for 3 months only so not that close yet (except Dino, the self-proclaimed cutest creature on Earth). I don't feel IT when I'm fooling around with them compared to BMS and Huyu and Nigel. It's really a different level altogether and when Huyu dropped me a line in MSN "MONKEY!" and Nigel "yo best friend", I feel so...... warm inside!

Simply remarkable people. Totally. :D

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It's not the distance. It's not the time. Just us that keep all of us together.

WONDERFULWONDERFULWONDERFUL!

The weekends and SCHOOL.

2006-07-11T01:54:00.000+08:00

A good weekend I had.

Greatttttttttttttttttttt tennis session on Saturday and I'm so happy I'm grasping backhand already and to top it off, the doubles was excellent. Headed to the newly opened cafe near the court and it basically fell beyond expectations for every single food we ordered. Stupid cafe cheated mum's money and THAT SOUND VERY CHEAPSKATE.

Headed to town with my family on Sunday cos mum wanted to buy the LV bag she longed for. She got her stuffs and we headed to Stadium to look for our stuff but saw nothing nice. SIGH I BADLY NEED A BAG.

And guess what? It's back to MONDAY again.

Gotten back 3 literature scripts and I wasn't very happy about them but I guess all these are just the start so I better work harder. THE LECTURE I HATE MOST IS ECONOMICS. VERY MUCH HATRED INDEED.

Don't even understand COP and Mr Ho is beginning on a new chapter which is UNFORTUNATELY, equally foreign to me. LT 1's air con broke down again. So you start school on Monday already feeling very grumpy yet you've to be stuck in a stuffy lecture theatre where by you don't even know what's going on for that 1 hour. What's new? You tell me.

And PW is getting a lil bit on my nerves when some people in your group just refuse to contribute and even if they contributed, it's effectively rubbish. Civics with Liu Fen is another hour of horrendous shit when she will NEVER fail to preach over and over again and tell us to accept certain people who had effectively CHOSE to detach from us due to some deep misconceptions which I believe can be solved if certain people STOP RUNNING AWAY. Plus I've to stand beside L2 during tml morning assembly and those 2 gundus would be there to station themselves as eyesores.

School has tranformed me to a complaint-spewing machines man.

P/S: JUN JUN LAO SHI WO AI NI!

lol.

Term 3, slowly warming up.

2006-07-07T23:02:00.000+08:00

Absolutely absorbed with "Tonight I Wanna Cry" by Keith Urban and I've to thank SEAN LIU YONG HAN for introducing me such a nice song! It's such a beautiful melancholy that draws my attention so much, so much indeed.

I just don't like the idea of happiness sometimes which is something people try to search fervently for all their lives but sinking yourself into a pool of mixture of melancholy, pain and tears is not such a bad idea afterall. It's definitely not equivalent to what the typical uncouth hooligans who will link this idea to being "emo" cos the result is just undermining the whole idea altogether. It's high time for me to just be by myself, without any intervene from anyone.

Digest a good book in a cafe. Go watch a movie. Hide in secluded corner at school to study. I want to do all these alone. Just need to feel myself for a while, feel the rawness, feel the vibe.

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Another week of T3 down and I'm beginning to abhor the 2 stacks of econs lecture notes in my file cos I REALLY REALLY REALLY don't understand Cost of Production plus the subsequent chapter after that which I can't be bothered to remember what is it! Things can't get worse my dearest Mr Ho broke the how detestable news that COP will be included in common test. THIS IS BAD.

And I'm beginning to like Chinese quite a bit and I actually 7 out of 10 chapters of Xue Shan Fei Hu. It's quite exciting actually but can be extremely ridiculous to the extent that you fight halfway, wolf down 2 chickens then you continue the fight. Miao Ren Feng is my favourite character, represents nobility.

All the LEP classes have to clean all the classrooms reserved for our usage today and obviously I did not help much, except for the amature way of mopping the floor for 5 minutes. I like the scenery when you look out of the windows cos you can see so many people engaging in different sports which would be a good source to look at when my mind starts to wander during Lee Wen Xiao's extremely boring lesson.

ANYWAY IT'S TIME TO BITCH. I contain sheer abhorrence, despise and pity for the horribly disgusting bunch of people from 06L02. It's nerve-wrecking to know that we've to be associated together by the school.

Abhorrence and despise because at the age of 17 or more, they should learn to behave like their age and the need to is REALLY BADLY. Especially the SUPER SUPER SUPER act cute girl who not only speaks with an SUPER SUPER SUPER irritating accent, she can't seem to SHUT UP for one moment. Of course, the i-think-i-am-pretty china girl who is also with her who TRIES really badly to be cool BUT of course, to NO AVAIL. The both of them are really people who need severe attention and the only attention I can give them is to cast them stares, hoping they'll stop being such irritants.

Fucking twit-ish shitheads who can't seem to shut their motherfucking mouths when they should and they're so fucking disrespect to Jun Jun who's my favourite chinese teacher okay! I hope the both of them get run down by some huge lorries or get raped by some strays dogs on their way home. STUPID MOTHERFUCKING BITCHES WHO SHOULD SHUT UP.

No thanks to those clowns that I spewed so much vulgarities, MOTHERFUCKERS!

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Eh DINO! I'm dedicating this last paraghraph to you okay so feel honoured! Thanks for helping me finding "Chong Lai"!

CHIMP & DINO; the animals of 06L01!

Dino is THE IDIOT who mocks me as a no brainer who can't do things like...... poke a straw into the cup of orea milkshake!

Dino is THE CLOWN who always do stupids stuffs with me like doing stupid forfeits when I lose at cai quan!

Dino is THE ACT CUTE DINOSAUR who never fails to act cute in front of me then she REFUSED to admit that I'm cuter than her!

HAHA DINO, CHEERS TO OUR ANIMALSHIP!

:)

Didn't I say 06L01 is a nice class to be in?

30th June, half a year down down down.

2006-06-30T23:45:00.000+08:00

As Mr Ng said during morning assembly today, it's already 30th June and that means half a year gone, leaving another half to go this year.

Quite an eventful half of 2006 for me I would say.

Can't seem to stop relishing all the simple yet special memories I had during 1st 3 months after reading Shak's blog. For now, 1st 3 months was the BEST TIME in my life in JJC when after going through an undescribable orientation, I started to skip almost every class just to play around in school with a wonderful company of course. Life back then was so simple, simpler than a primary one kid cos school was just an avenue of merry-making and there wasn't an nuance in me to like settle down to prolly...... read an econs lecture note?! No stress. Totally.

After which, got shortlisted to be part of shadows and I felt that I was by far the MOST INCOMPETENT member cos of A LOT of faults. I didn't bring a notebook for the meetings, I didn't comply to the common attire during meetings, I was always late for meetings and I was really touched when Jennifer sort of stood up for me when she knew I did nothing right in shadows except for mimicing how Yuhan (that bitch) blinked with 1 eye. Yes, she blinks with 1 freaking eye!

In the midst, I dropped out of shadows cos I was posted to AJC. It was merely the 1st day in school and my abhorrence for the whole environment rose to an unacceptable level that I transferred out of school immediately. Prolly AJC is better than JJC in terms of academic achievements and prolly my decision to leave AJC was made in a haste or the spur of the moment but the moment I stepped back into JJC, I got back the warmth I never find in AJC. Though I admit that if I stayed on in AJC for a couple more days, I would prolly get more comfortable but JJC just attracts me...... somehow.

And I'm thankful to Jun Jun and Mr Yee for flouting the rule so that I can stay on in LEP after the transfer despite my horrendous results in the 1st 3 months. I must say though my chinese is still relatively weaker compared to the others but at least I've improved over this half of the year. Of course, 06L01 is a nice class to be in with the daily dosage of gossips about the ji mo bian jie people, daily fun with DINO, laughing super loud with SiYing and those lil things that make class more fun which are too much to list down.

For now, school's still managable with CSL, studies and volleyball but I know the next half year will be SUPER HECTIC. I wouldn't want to think of what'll happen in time to come but I would just want to live in the memories of all the yesterdays in my dreams tonight. Memories.

A bittersweet recap and I look forward for more such recaps.

1st day of term 3

2006-06-26T19:30:00.000+08:00

First time watching soccer online in the wee hours of today and it was the Holland VS Portugal match. I thought an exciting match will beckon me with two strong teams pitting against one another BUT the second half was packed with foul play, red cards and yellow cards instead of professionalism reigning over the match. Oh well, Portugal managed to cruise into the top 8 eventually.

Battled with my greed for more sleep and finally woke up at 7 but I knew I would be late for school and I actually boarded the bus at 7.45 when assembly starts at 7.40! Greeted by a HUGE mass of fellow JJ-ians who were in the same plight as me and I devised an ingenious way to skip detention! Identity swop- go figure it out.

Hmmm, school was okay but I think it could have been better if I was at the assembly ground cos I would be able to bask in the atmosphere of the first day of a brand new term. Mr Lim is seriously getting too boring for Literature and to make my way to his dreadful lessons is really a pain in the ass man. Sigh.

And feeling the immense workload approaching in term 3 already. ):

Chinese Lit.
Econs's cost of production.
PW.

THE THREE LITTLE PIGS THAT KILL.

SCHOOL'S DEPRESSING LAH.

Last day of June holidays, BOO HOO!

2006-06-25T15:23:00.000+08:00

Initial long waited June holidays would be announced over when the clock strikes 12 later and let's join the queue of disgruntled people who had their holidays invaded by menancing teachers who delegated mounts and mounts of homework. Our education system have already made us accustomed us to sacrifice time that was supposedly devoted to relaxation for our becoming of books' labourers which is ultimately,extremely heart wrenching. Very deprived souls expected in school tomorrow.

I'm glad that I've found some info for PW and the Chinese project is 40% completed. I'm left with Econs tutorial and GP essay which are unfortunately SO lengthy but I've to do it or else Miss Ng would bomb me with her twin towers and Mr Ho would hate me more than ever. There's still xue shan fei hu which I really really really really really DON'T WANT TO EVEN TOUCH OKAY! Why must I read that detestable book?! 21st century NO riding of horses to war okay!

TMD CHINESE LIT.

Anyway, I watched She's The Man with Hu Hu on Thurday! It's such a superb movie that everyone should watch, especially those who studied Twelfth Night before. 5 stars for such a wonderful movie.

I'll blog again when school reopens ok!

TILL THEN, byebye!

Don't be too nice. Don't look into those eyes. I'll succumb though it'll be another naught.

AT SEAN'S PLACE.

2006-06-16T17:29:00.000+08:00

And it's finally down to the middle of the second last week of the holidays and freaking homework, projects and revision NOT completed. I hate things undone mounting up to my neck yet I'm doing nothing to reduce my burden. IRRITATINGLY DEPRESSING.

Had volleyball training this morning at 8.30 but the rain forced us to do some useless indoor activities which also mean that I woke up at an unearthly hour for nothing! I'm at Sean's house now and the initial intention to read Great Expectations and TIMES magazine is totally forgotten. Instead, succumbed to chatting with Jiaxin & Sean, laptop, tv and very shameful act of stealing grapes to eat with Jiaxin. Jiaxin, LOTSA EATING 1 GRAPE EACH OCCURRED LEH. Temptations AGAIN.

I'm SO hungry now but Jiaxin's still glued to watching Holland Village then the chao Wanky still wanking in the toilet.

And there's tennis tml so pray coach Bob wouldn't reprimand me for not completing my strokes.

BYE!

LONG POST AHEAD.

2006-06-05T19:48:00.000+08:00

HEY EVERYONE! (again)

A long post ahead, I reckon.

I went school today to play volleyball with Hui Hui and Jason for a while before attending the less interesting SIA talk. Rushed to meet Huyu at JP and we joked a bit at Delifrance. Tomorrow's Nigel's and Peiyong's birthdays and we're finally meeting up again! 6/6/2006, how cool is that?!

I dread holiday assignments with the mention of school. It's not as if self-revision is pressurising enough, I realised I've to come to school for the whole of this week and I've to be in school by 8 tomorrow. JC's really robbing me of my time but then again, I think all these are part and parcel of being a student so to those who're hanging by the edge, pull yourself together all right!

And I would like to talk about my realisation last Saturday while I was playing tennis and I think this time it's for real. I really want to become a better person and the first thing I'm going to accomplish would be eradicating profanities for my daily bank of vocabulary. I used to think it was perfectly okay to spew vulgarities in various languages but I realised it's extremely uncouth and it's like a subtle self-mockery if you haven't realise. Sounds pretty impossible but I would try my best and very proud of myself for not using any vulgarities today! STOP all the vulgarities people, unless you want to be staring walking examples of self-mockery who would be despised.

Anyhow, I got this feeling cracks have found their ways into my family already and they're creeping in between my parents. Everyone's who had interact with my family before normally said how close knitted we're and how humourous my family can be. I wouldn't deny that point but I think my dad is really starting to cross over the line of basic respect which never fails to anger my mum. My mum is seriously a wonderwoman I would say cos she takes care of every single microscopic details but she had to give up her youth at the expense of taking care of the household. The cruel reality has it that youth can't be returned in whatever means unless you consider plastic surgery which I think is indeed very superficial so my mum had lost something extremely valuable to a woman yet my dad remains extremely insensitive to her.

I abhorred the way my dad behaves at home and I really do. I mean he often snaps at my mum for no reason and should I describe him as a bull more than a human cos that bull never seem to be willing to accept people's opinions which is increasingly irritating by the day when you're trying to convey a message to him. My dad just don't understand the role of a father and the lackadaisical approach towards this family is simply beyond redemption. That's why I don't talk to him; I hate to communicate with him. What happened to family?

Perfect family portrait: Mum, Me, Sara and Gina.

I'm not selfish nor am I diminishing my dad's role in this family but after prolonged detest for him, sometimes you just can't turn back. You can't.

I just wish school will reopen now so I can 06L01 again and just joke around with them during lessons and play volleyball after school. Or just go find a comfortable place in Coffee Bean to drink coffee and eat cheesecake for a very simple pleasure. Or just sit in my room to reminsce about all the wonderful camps I attended in JJ.

Anything. Really.

To make me happy instead of brooding over so much things inside.

Argh. TOMORROW WILL BE A BETTER DAY.

CAMPS ATTACK!

2006-06-02T10:15:00.000+08:00

HEY EVERYONE!

After reading the blogs of some of my friends, the uanimous content is that everyone has been busy and life seems to be smooth-sailing with little blemishes and that's an apt description of my life as well. It's has been a long time since I met up with all the important people in my life and seeing the BMS and primary school schoolmates would suffice. Make some time to meet up despite our busy schedules okay?

That's the wonder of forged friendships that you know will last to the end.

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Alas! Anticipated holidays had arrived but camps had already convienently consumed the 1st week of my holidays and let's not talk about lectures, mounting holiday assignments and trainings. I DEMAND LESS WORK OKAY!

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First up, CSL camp on 26th May to 28th May. It was like replay of a mini orientation 1 and the whole time, I was reminiscing the immense fun I had in OG 3 but as I snapped back to reality, the campers this time are secondary school students and us, the CSLs. It was such a pity I didn't manage to bond enough with my group cos the CSLs were often called out for meetings but Bee was the one who REALLY REALLY REALLY cracked me up when she cheered "YI-BAH-AN-DE-NAE!"

Living conditions in the camp were much dire.
1) Air cons in the hall were set at 16C! I nearly turned into a frozen pack of boneless chicken so I had to sleep outside the hall for 2 nights. Not a nice feeling I must say.
2) Had to exercise water-rationing BUT some of us didn't care. We bathed at the spacious toilets at the sides of the hall without being caught.
3) The food on our plates were pathetic in term of quantity.

Last day of the camp saw everyone crying cos Mr Leow touched on a very sensitive topic about how we often treasured our friends over our family members. This was the first time he never propaganda and what he said was true so that's why he hit upon our raw nerves. Wow, at that point of time, guilt was really chewing me alive.

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After I broke camp, I went to Grace's house to practise our dance for the performance during LEP camp. Her house looks opulent with all the exquisite designs and the spaciousness. I like! Some of us stayed over, including me, to come out with the dance steps for 3/4 of the song before we drifted off to sleep at 3 am, feeling extremely worn out. Yeah, I must say Si Ying's dramatic acting REALLY REALLY REALLY cracked me up.

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29th May to 1st June was LEP camp held at NTU.

Didn't pay much attention during the lectures cos both boredom and weariness consumed me so I was on the table most of the time. The best thing was that we kept eating after EVERY lecture and the food catered for us is really very appetizing. Wow, MOE's is really rich.

On the 2nd day, 06L01 performed our song & dance and though we had an embarrassing mistake at the end of the song, I'm really glad we pulled it off and yeah, the audience was supportive. Superb job, 06L01!

At night was the best cos we weren't allow to enter the females' level (vice versa) but we couldn't resist flouting the rule. Mdm Liu Fen was extremely nice to allow us to stay up to ungodly hour on the last night and we had a massive sharing lesson about council elects, ghost stories and the list goes on. She bought dumplings for us too!

I really enjoyed myself during the camp with the excellent company of friends, jokes and the food in front of us.

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1 week of camps is indeed memorable but the aftermath of it is me falling sick with cough, fever, flu and mild sore throat. 1 whole string of illnesses but I think it's worth it.

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It's been 1 long entry so I guess I better stop here. Till then, BYE!

BACK IN ACTION

2006-05-20T14:55:00.000+08:00

First blog entry in the month of May.

Can't bother recapping what's happening in my life cos I seemed to have lose track of events but I must say life's pretty good now. I'm quite enjoying life of now. Really.

Elated that I passed all my tests the week before the last and I actually passed my very 1st LEP Chinese test but the stupid bitch Liu Fen still thinks my chinese is pretty much beyond redemption. One fine day I'll seriously tell her not to watch an extremely cheena-ish high heels with socks that reach her freaking knees if she goes over the line.

Jun Ting is really too impervious during volleyball training which pisses me off cos the fun element of training just dissolves under him. Yeow Hui should be back in the team.

And I really like my class a lot now and we're supposed to perform 2 items for the LEP camp. I bet that we're going to be clowns on stage and it's the end of me if we've to sing or dance or a combination of both. I'm serious. THE END OF ME. Yes, I'm quite shy.

Ya right.

And the teachers in the arts faculty are cranky please. Cramping all the tests in the last week of school?! I've Econs and Eng Lit on Monday, Chinese spelling on Tuesday, Maths on Wednesday, Chinese Language on Thursday and Eng lit on Friday. Like RAH! Miss Ng has finished all 59 chapters in Great Expectations and where am I now? 6th chapter.

Mr Ho, my Econs teacher actually bring a duster to class just in case the classroom doesn't has one. That man really makes me laugh.

And Dino thinks I'm affecting her intelligence cos she thinks I'm dumb. HELLO! Look who's dumb. She followed me to the staff room to fill up our water bottles. There, you've it, dumb and dumber going to the staff room to fill water bottles with all the teachers casting WTF looks at the both of us.

Had JJ talentime yesterday and it was nice. Huyu came too! I really missed her and we had a hug. We'll meet up during the hols, trust me bimbo. (: And she was laughing away when I told her Liu Fen's son can't drink milk cos he'll stop breathing. HAHA! Weird mum=Weird son.

Meeting BMS for Sean's play later.

So much to complete but time management sucks.

OH WELL.

I'll survive!

AND AND......

I'm getting a bag on Monday with Nicholas so we're predicting that we'll fall sick after 3 pm which means we can't go for training.

BUY THAT JUNTING!

It's time to buck up.

2006-04-29T19:42:00.000+08:00

Academically, it has been an extremely lousy week for me.

Chinese literature test: 5/20
Chinese spelling: 0/50
Econs essay: Definitely screwed up
Maths assignment: C

I had to admit I was thoroughly demoralised and instantly felt strong jets of disappointment surging through me when I received my results but I have learnt from this failure. It's an immediate wake up call for me that honeymoon period in JJC had long dissolved into thin air and it's high time for me to settle down to study for my tests seriously. No more complacency, no more gallavanting around everywhere except home and no more procrastination. Snap out of it, Melvin! Stop being so thick up in the head! 11 points for Os is freaking hell bullshit.

Having 4 tests next week. 2 for chinese, 1 for GP and 1 for Maths. ): I better work hard to make my grades look less ugly.

But looking at the brighter side of life, sentosa trip with 06L01 was pretty much fun and I caught up with the BMS! Though we didn't yak THAT much, seeing them would suffice. (:

AND MY PW GROUP WOULD BE SOOOOO SMOOTH WITHOUT CHEN TING!

Life's screwed BUT I'll find my way out!

<3 06L01

2006-04-23T10:33:00.000+08:00

Amazing how the human race can't defy the forces of nature and an apt example would be time; time just brushes off my shoulders so quickly that it's difficult to keep track of what I've done. And it's because time is uncontrollable that terrifies me at times because I want to accomplish certain things before I pass on to another world and I fear to be preoccupied with the wrong things that make me lose my focus. It's just human nature to want to be perfect but again, it's human nature to err as well. TIME. What a beautiful yet frightening tool of nature.

Having a bunch of friends that makes me laugh heartily is certainly a bliss. Last sunday, the bunch of primary school friends met up after a period of time that seemed like years and we dined at Olios. Settled at Olios due to the fate of flipping a coin (the thing we do best) and we were drawn by the ambience and the sumptuous food made available for us. Though the gathering was a short-lived one, it's indeniable that everyone had their fair share of amusement and fun. Well, it's just everyone misses everyone and with this special bonds within us, we never fear anything that strive to jeopardise this friendship. Yeah Huyu, don't be afraid, we'll be always be the same.

And back in JJC, I'm fortunate to be in 06L01. Contrary to conventional thinking that we're merely a bunch of people who are totally foreign with English, we did well enough in GP. I enjoyed myself immensely whenever all of us gathered at the cafe to play the "tapping palms" game and though we acknowledged the fact that we were making far too much commotion, we remained oblivious to others casting eyes filled with abhorrance upon us. The way we deviced a plan to irritate Mr Ho on Friday was hilarious (standing outside the class with our tutorials and the way we mimiced his pronounciation of "time" as "thumb") and whether you believe it or not, I don't hate him that much already. Yeah, human nature to be judgmental inititally then realised that you were too irrational.

Definitely a good week I had this week and I look forward to having such memorable weeks ahead! However, I can't escape the cruel fact that I've homework undone that are wating for me to screw their asses. Sigh, homework, the necessary evil.

Don't fringe when the all external forces seem to be crushing down on you, giving you no leeway to take a breather. It's only those who don't crack under pressure that are deemed as the strongest and reality has it that only the strongest survive. Please don't give up when everything seems to go anywhere except your desired direction because somehow, something will happen. To guide you and to save you.

EMOKID.

2006-04-16T11:56:00.000+08:00

HEY FELLOWS.

Another week of school is over and I feel that my life has turned mudane and stale at times cos it's either homework or volleyball though I've been cracking my brains up to think of excuses to skip trainings for the month of April only. RE: month of april only. :P And I'm feeling the stress cos my counterparts in the science stream keep lamenting about the amount of work they have to complete while relatively, I don't seem to have that much to do. Is it that I'm idling or what? Wait, I don't even procrastinate to start with!

Having to study a new subject is tough at times, example, Chinese Literature. I'm having a premonition that I'll screw up Chinese Literature in any examinations or tests that I undertake. I'm serious okay and I think I'll fail the test I took this friday. I studied for it but still, screwed the damn test up. Wenfeng claimed he didn't study yet he wrote more than me by quite a lot! WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ALL THESE PEOPLE?!

Ah. Enough of studies. Life's manipulated by books, pens and texts and there's no time to unwind! Never mind, for once I'm going out later to celebrate Kelly's belated birthday. Though it would be a short gathering, I'll make full use of it. :]

I broke my exercise regime for 3 days already. I never do what I'm supposed to do and what happened to jogging once per week?! I've to jog when I come home later. Time to be fit but chin ups are so annoying.

I better get off now, go read some lit texts before going out. I've a million make up lessons next week and the volleyball competition starts tml! SHIT, I got chinese make up so I can't go! SUCKERS!

BMS: THIS TUESDAY! YOU GUYS ON BOH?!

Another week down

2006-04-08T15:45:00.000+08:00

HEY THERE! I guess I'm reduced to blogging once per week nowadays cos school's eating up most of my time. It's time consuming to have 3 CCAs and I've to quit of them to prevent clashing of schedule. This is so saddening! ): Having CLDDS, debate and volleyball now. I've to join CLDDS cos Mdm Liu Fen said that I'm in the chinese lit category in LEP. Sometimes, Mdm Liu Fen can be quite a bitch. So...... that means I've to quit debate which means I'm giving up the chance to run the inter JC debate competition. ): Never mind. THIS SHALL SPUR ME ON TO DO WELL IN VOLLEYBALL! (:

And I quarreled with Mr Ho this tuesday. I can totally foresee that episode since the day we acknowledged the fact that we hated each other. It was a pretty heated quarrel cos that asshole thought I was giving him attitude problem BUT doesn't he have the brain to think WHY am I giving attitude problem? I've to voice out my opinions whenever I can't stand something so obviously, clashes with him are inevitable BUT during thursday's tutorial, my classmates asked me to control my temper so I listened to them dutifully. That bastard blew his top again; pinpointing every single mistake of my class! WAH, I REALLY HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE him to the MAX! Well, for the sake of active participation marks and conduct, I'll practise self control.

Anyway, I think 06L01 is a nice class to be in! I like! :] At least I think they're some sense of unity among us and we're not so chinese-dified after all okay! I found a singing partner who loves singing but sings out of tunes 10/10 songs and this coincidentally, is my problem as well! So the both of us are always entertaining the class by singing! There's the Mickey and Minnie too. What a sweet couple man! :] And thursday, we played the put the mentos in the coke game and it's way too cool man! I shall upload the video soon! 06L01 ALL THE WAY! :]

I realised some of my friends are pretty troubled over their studies. I've to BUCK UP! To you guys: Don't give up k! Just keep on working hard! Must Jiayou! <3

C LIT.
ECONS.
ENGLISH LIT.
FILING.
REVISION.

and it's the weekends.
and it's been long since I last enjoyed myself.
and let's not mention town.
and it has been ages since I last saw everyone precious to me.
and I haven't been talking to Celine. I really miss her.
and I want to have a cup of coffee and slice of cake in front of me.

RAINY DAYS MAKE THINGS WORSE HUH!

kaninabuchaocheebye.

I JUST SINNED.

Weekends!

2006-04-02T02:10:00.000+08:00

HEY HEY! Ahhhhhhhhhhh, the long awaited weekends is FINALLY here and it's time to slackkkkkkkkkk my ass off! And my parents are heading for Malaysia this weekend so for now, my cousins are here to take care of us. It's cool to have people talking absolute gibberish around you and we watched Ice Age just now. Pretty hilarious movie I would say. :)

And for now, let me complain about my school life before the toil repeats itself next week. I realised that for my combination, I need to READ & WRITE a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot! It's just ENDLESS ESSAYS! ): And I must say that my class hates our econs teacher- Mr Ho. He's SO short that I think he takes public transport FOR FREE and he's SO unreasonable that he keeps reminding himself STUDENTS WRONG TEACHER CORRECT. I can't stand the sight of his FREAKING UGLY hair cos that pathetic hairstyle misled me to think that he hatched out from an egg but I wouldn't be surprised if that's true. The worst thing is that he's prejudiced against me as I kept skipping econs tutorials. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ALL THE ECONS TEACHERS?????!!!!! WHY'RE THEY BIASED, DISGUSTINGLY UGLY AND UNREASONABLE??????!!!!! 1 more time they ask me to shut up during lectures, I'll stuff my foot down their throats and $50 bet that MY LEG IS THRICE THE SIZE OF MR HO'S PUNY BODY! :]

If only Gabriel Lim can be a more lively lit teacher, if only Miss Foo know her maths stuffs more and if only school was like 1st 3 months when the word "fun" kept revolving around every single thought of mine! ): I really miss 4E5 teachers cos I've realised that EVERY SINGLE TEACHER is so genuine and sweet, including PUNITHA! TEACHERS, I MISS YOU GUYS SO MUCH!!!!! ):

-I miss how Mrs Toh curlsssss her tongue and the way she nags at our comphrehensions, compositions and summaries.
-I miss how Mrs Goh sarcastically said I've no common sense and the cuteeeee way she behaves! MEH MEH!
-I miss how Miss Punitha screamed her lungs out for every lesson with us and the way she reacts when I call her Mrs Bala.
-I miss how Miss Chua acted cute, acted fierce and she standing beside me for chem pracs.
-I miss how Miss Chiew bitched in class about EVERYONE in the school and the encouragement she gave me for Chinese.
-I miss how Mr Cha cracked superrrrr lame jokes and that coconut hairstyle of his!
-I miss how Miss Leong slanged and the way she sashayed, THINKING she's sexy when she's NOT!

And I really miss everything of 1st 3 months! Like EVERYTHING- eating during breaks with a wonderful bunch of people, playing cards at the cafe, playing different sorts of ball games, ponning lessons marathon every single day, seeing people from all sort of secondary schools and 2006 ORIENTATION CAMP!!!!! Nostalgic memories kept falling into places in my mind but yet when reality sinks in...... the feelings just come crashing down instantly! That's the pain of remembering.

I GOT TO CATCH UP WITH ALL MY FRIENDS! Primary school friends & the BMS! We need to exercise our mouths over some coffee! :) And I still got 2 undone chinese essays! FUCK!

improving attitude.

2006-03-28T20:30:00.000+08:00

HEY! Let me blog about my SUPERB monday and tuesday okay! :]

SUPERBSUPERBSUPERB! :)))

Monday: Argh, the first part of the day was dampening. Not only was volleyball training cancelled, the weather was so unpredictable as it was raining inconsistently, making the whole school so stuffy! -.-" But what perked me up A LOT was the studying with khai and shak from 6-9. I'm happy that I'm getting the momentum of studying back again and it's SUPERRRRR NICE to study in the night in the school. It's peaceful and the wind wasn't too mild nor strong. Music from shak's phone was pleasing and the conversations across the table were engaging. :]

Bangla+Manjen+Minah=Superb siak!

Tuesday(today): Dismissed at 1 and supposed to pon revelation to go town. However, we took 5639262901 years to leave beloved JJC for town and we took another 7492617403 years to reach town by bus. I think my flat butt got flattened more so my butt is prolly -50 cm now. ): And we walked half of town to search for Jason's bag and still settled for the 1st adidas bag we saw. I took another 4365372965 years to reach home by bus. WHAT THE FUCK MAN. ):

And I'm joining the debate team as well but I'm afraid coach don't want to train me after competition if the timing for both CCAs clashes. Hias. Please let me excel in both debate and volleyball, show the world that inexperience would NOT pull me down! THAT'S THE WAY: DETERMINATION!

And...... Mdm Liu Fen is getting irritating and she's pushing the limit already. Like really pushing to the edge already! She catches me for my hair spiked up, shoes being dirty and uniform tucked out. She's SOOOOO pissful-dified that I really want to burn her mouth lah. Time to get a life.

YAH, MR HO TOO: get a life and some pills to help you grow tall!

I can't be less judgemental lah. I'm feeling guily for 5 seconds.

5.
4.
3.
2.
1.

It's more criticism LATER.

improving attitude.

2006-03-28T20:28:00.000+08:00

Back!

2006-03-25T15:19:00.000+08:00

HEY ALL! It bas been longgggg since I last blogged so let me do a long entry if I can.

Hmmm, term 2 just kicked in so no more frivolous me anymore and I think school is manageable for me now. I'm posted to 06L01 AGAIN and instead of having 6 people like what we had in PAE, we've 16 now! I think my class is NOT that chinese-dified as what others perceived us to be cos they're cool people around too! There're the CHENS (chen cheng and chen ting) who are quite humourous people and there's this JINGHUI who can make my ass split while laughing man! :P

And studies wise, STILL A LOT TO CATCH UP. Attention: I GOT THE LOWEST ACROSS THE LEVEL FOR MY CHINESE LIT LAH! It was expected cos I was pretty much writing rubbish in my script so getting 9/50 is quite commendable already! :] And the faggot chinese lit teacher kept scaring us about our examinations, saying we got to answer 7 essay questions in 3 hours and normally students don't do well. ARGH, SHUT UP! I got to self study for econs and maths cos my teachers CAN'T TEACH FOR NUTS LAH! I only like english lit and GP now. Talk about A Level next year, H-U-R-H-U-R. ):

How can I forget? I TOTALLY screwed up the interview for the moe scholarship. Like REALLY SCREWED UP TO THE MAX. ): I don't take chinese lit in my secondary school, I don't read chinese books, I don't read chinese newspapers and I know nuts about chinese history! Therefore, I happily shot myself in the foot by crapping my way throughout the interview for 15 mins.

I think I'm quite happy in volleyball though I don't do much during training cos the coach is training the main 6 for the competition next month. Really hope the team can beat all the odds to make it at least to the top 8! :] And come may, my training starts already and there would only be about 5-7 people? But still, I'LL JIAYOU! :] And I'm joining the english debate team as well. It sounds corny. :X

Last evening/night was SUPERRRRR COOLLLLL! :) After training, I went to joined BANGLA(khai), SHAK and the couple who were all gathered at the bench and we played some supposedly HIGHLY INTELLIGENT GAMES. I couldn't catch the "what's the time now" crap. Shak and I went to run for 2 rounds around the track at 8 in the night and wow, running in the dark is something delightful! The wind was strong and you just keep on running running running...... YUP!

PAUSE.

Enough of school life. It's a Saturday today and well, I never go tennis traning, never go volleyball training nor go back to school with my bangla group. Just needed a rest and think...... about stuffs. Think to reflect.

I musn't:

-Be inattentive in class and show signs of lack of interest.

-Be more initiated in volleyball training though coach trains the main 6 now. I WANT TO BE IN MAIN 6 NEXT YEAR! :]

And stop having negative thoughts. It's tough but I'VE TO CONQUER IT!

SNAP.

My sisters are studying. Sean is studying. SO HERE I COME, HOMEWORK!

HAPPY DAY!

2006-03-15T00:57:00.000+08:00

Hey! I love the volleyball training today though it was the test of the leg muscles; coach asked me to learn the sitmulated footings and I was placed in the blocking position. Kept jumping & jumping & jumping...... SHUANG AH! :]

And went to watch date movie with some volleyball friends after training. CRAP CRAP CRAP! It was the worst show ever in the world lah. No storyline at all so there was like no connections between scenes. Wasted $7 for a nonsensical movie. What the hell man! ):

Headed to town next! Met up with Jiaxin + Richalynn & friends + Sean & friends. So everyone at starbucks was amazed by the flexibility and length of my fingers lah! WAHAHA! :] And that Linus guy. Fucking disgusting ugly guy who not only has acne all over his face, his dress sense is WAY too un-town-ish! Please look at yourself in the mirror before commenting about my friend okay! Your parents are prolly aliens so you look like some horrendous freak who just escaped from a failed chemical experiment.

Being less judgemental is definitely not my forte but SO? Heh heh. I don't want the march hols to end lah, it's super slack lah and why other schools got homework to do but we don't have?????!!!!! -.-" A lot of bithdays up ahead. TATA!

Feeling low & moody.

2006-03-13T12:08:00.000+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE!

Had a short town session with Huyu & Peiyong yesterday to help Huyu choose a present. Huyu was a pretty girl yesterday and I wore my crocs slippers! It's orange okay! :] After debating with myself for quite some time, I decided to go to JE for my ushering duty. IT TOTALLY SPOILT MY NIGHT COS THE WHOLE PROCESSION WAS NOT EVEN CLOSE TO HIGH CAN! Luckily, the bitching with Hui Jun, the chatting with Su Yang & Tai Khoon and the mass dances made the time there more enjoyable. Thanks Huyu & Peiyong for accompanying me to the place and waste about 20 minutes of your life. :]

And people, I'm feeling low recently and I'm still trying to figure out why. ):

1) I haven't got the BBSS alumni tee done AT ALL and yet Li Hui put me in charge of 4E5.

2) And I can't stand the way some assumed good friend behaved in such a childish and unaccomadating manner, making a mountain out of a molehill over a small issue and to bear grudges for as long as you live. Come on. Patience runs on a thin line and please do not think living by your attitude would do you good. That would be a joke. TOTALLY.

3) And I feel out of league in school somehow. I don't know why but you feel like an extra wherever you go the kind of thing? I hope I can mix well with everyone in school, especially my classmates or I'll perish in class over the next 2 years. I'm looking so forward to every volleyball training cos the seniors are like super nice lah but once they + Jason + Yeow Hui leave, I think the team would lack the "it" factor already. Training would be different, definitely.

ARGH! I got so many things unsettled in my mind and when term 2 starts, HOW TO SURVIVE CHINESE LIT?! It's one whole big mess.

I need......

BADLY.

))))):

Exercising.

2006-03-11T16:45:00.000+08:00

Hey people! I'm loving the weather more and more each day cos mr sun is out to baked us relentlessly! It's good to perspire at times. =) I went jogging with Peiyong in the morning today and the session was great! Ran 7+ rounds + crunches + leg dips + sit ups. Though it isn't a great accomplishment, I'm satisfied with myself already. =)

Hanging out with a group of sporty friends really influences you to follow their footsteps too. It's time to kick the habit of going town to spend money and instead, I should exercise more. I used to refrain from going swimming with my family every sunday but I shall START swimming with them from this week onwards. Jogging every saturday and volleyball training is thrice a week so I guess my lifestyle is pretty healthy!

And I'm learning to be less judgemental. I shall not scrutinise people's appearances and dressing and pass a comment that they're ugly when I'm not good-looking to begin with. I've cut down on my uncouth language too though I still use "nae nae" pretty frequently. -.-" YAY, IT FEELS GOOD TO CHANGE FOR THE BETTER. :]

Going to queensway later with my family to get some stuffs. Excited! It's time to spend more time with my family. :] Hias. I don't want april to come! SHOO APRIL! ):

MADNESS AT JJ NIGHT 2!

2006-03-10T00:25:00.000+08:00

Hey everyone! 9th of March- MEMORABLE DAY TO REMEMBER! :)

Hmmm, went to Jason's house after school today with the intention to learn DOTA but computer games are not my cup of tea at all. I ended up doing exercises and watching MTV. Jason and Yeow Hui have such a HUGE misconception about me, like totally. They think I'm a spendthrift and spoilt brat as I spent quite a lump sum of money in town pretty frequently and whenever I eat in a coffeeshop, I'll grumble. Well people, actually I'm learning to cut down my expenses so at the end of the day, I'm neither a spendthrift nor spoilt brat okay! -.-"

Headed for JJ Night 2 and IT WAS A TOTAL BLAST BLAST BLAST!!!!! I think I got super high after screaming cheers at the top of my voice so when it came to mass dance, I think most of us got super duper high lah! I was like jumping around like some crazy monkey and poor Hui Hui got toured around the floor when I got a little bit too excited! Plus, the song singing sessions were still as touching as ever; everyone was putting his hands across the shoulders of the people standing at his either side and when the whole school swayed to the beat of the song, it's just fantastic! TOTAL MADNESS CUM SWEAT IT ALL OUT SESSION! :)

And it was a tearing session too for those who are not staying in JJC cos having to leave a place with so many memories is just so tough! Everyone was super nice and I went around hugging everyone lah! Friends, Mr Leow, OG 3 OGLs, Seniors and the shadow committee. I really feel very guilty for pangseh-ing my shadow committee cos they didn't hate me for leaving them for another school but instead, they were still so warm to me. SHADOWS! YOU GUYS DID AN EXCELLENT EXCELLENT EXCELLENT JOB IN RUNNING O2 LAH! :)

After all these right, I really really really have no qualms over appealing back to JJC from AJC. I'm really thankful for being accepted back into JJC and though there're still some worries, I think they'll ironed out soon. JJC is the best!!!!! =) But sadly, I'm ponning school tml but not volleyball. Intensive training is up next, including me- a newbie! WAHAHA!

Des's house

2006-03-08T12:12:00.000+08:00

HEY WORLD!

I finally joined JJC orientation 2 as a true JJC-ian and more than half OG 16 are my friends! Mr Leow announced that the 1st intake people would be dismissed at about 10-11 from wednesday to friday so school's like extremely relaxing. Plus, next week is the March hols which makes life more carefree but play time is over come 2nd term.

Anyway, I'm blogging from Desiree's house now. Contemplating whether to go for vb training or not. Jason & Yeow Hui are coming down to help train us too.

All right. Gota make it snappy. TATA!

Frustration due to travelling

2006-03-07T16:14:00.000+08:00

Damn! I'm so worn out right now cos today is madness in travelling man! I went back to bbss to get the school stamp on some of my documents then went back to AJC to confirm my withdrawl before going back to JJC to confirm my stay! The long train rides are irksome and the way the horrendous sun baked the Earth definitely did not help much. :( But after all the hassle and the loose ends tidied up, I'm just elated that I'm back in JJC and there're a lot of people I know who're in OG 16! That's the ACSi guy in OG 16 who I've deep hatred for since the 1st day I saw him. Think you're a cuite pie wearing RGS tee lah! -.-"

Everything's going to start from scratch after the march hols. No more pontening econs and maths tutorials, no more taking my own sweet time to go for classes, no more trying to piss off my econs and maths teachers and start participating in every single thing! Rockable life ahead. YAY YAY YAY!

And I MUST splurge during the march hols!

APPEALED BACK TO JJ! :]

2006-03-06T22:58:00.000+08:00

HEY people! i've to take back my words that i'll do my best in AJC cos this morning, i endured one of the worst day in my life but i'm just glad that i'm still alive. =] AJC's orientation was so terribly ran, everything seemed to be SUPER BORING yet the OGFs were doing pathetically in their part to spice up the atmosphere in the hall. i just got a suppressed feeling in AJC and the way the teachers spoke in an unfriendly manner is definitely NOT a good way to start a weary morning. i really wanted to pur acids down the chemistry teacher who spoke like a TOTAL BITCH. the whole feeling is AJC is just not comfortable; not a place for me, at least to call my second home for the next 2 years to come.

HENCE...... i tried my best to appeal back to JJC. i'm extremely grateful to lee qiong jun lao shi and yu lao shi cos they not only helped me in settling my appeal, they allowed me to join back LEP! oh ya, MY APPEAL WAS A SUCCESS! =] at that moment, a lot of memories just started to recollect in my mind and i realised that JJC is really the place for me. i mean the way the orientation camp ran is enough to speak volumes for the school itself and the way my chinese teachers treated me eased a lot of my confusion at that point of time. JJC is like a place where things are already there for me, the friends & seniors, the interest directed programmes, the LEP block and the volleyball team! the familarity really does wonders and what more can i ask more when i'm in a place where i'm totally in love with! =]

just to sum up......

TEAM JJ IS THE BEST!
TEAM JJ BEATS THE REST!

POSTED TO: ANDERSON JC.

2006-03-04T17:49:00.000+08:00

hey! hmmm, the posting results was out yesterday and i got posted to AJC. though i got into my first choice school, i should be jumping around with joy but on the contrary, i'm pretty lukewarm towards the results. =/ at this point of time, i'm still thinking hard whether AJC is THE school for me but somehow, i told myself that i'll make the best out of everything. do well in my studies, join a brand new cca and run for counsel? oh well. THE FUTURE IS UNPREDICTABLE!

i finally went back to JJC yesterday after skipping school on wednesday and thursday. i realised that all the seniors i know are very caring people cos they were all wishing me good luck in whatever i do in the future. they didn't even bear any grudges on me for leaving the school despite my initial enthusiasm and passion for the school. THEY'RE SOOOOO NICE! =] i was exceptionally happy when the seniors i gave cards to thanked me profusely. nattaporn gave me a hug lah! she's really a nice person so don't be mistaken by her unfriendly exterior.

fast foward: huyu, kelly, nigel and peiyong popped by my house at night and they really rocked the house down. firstly, we were discussing about certain issues that were threatening our friendship and i certainly hope that friendship is NOT determined by whether we're hanging out with each other or not. some people might say it's just corny bullshit but if we're friends, such small issues shouldn't cause a breakdown at all. the next time we go out, IT'S EVERYONE. =] and there was this sudden craze of playing hai tai and wu gui wu gui tiao! obviously, only huyu, nigel and i were having fun with these two extremely comical games. the fun part came when we played heart attack- everyone was screaming for nothing and the cards flew in every direction when someone shouted "HEART ATTACK!" well, indulging in such seemingly childish games at times is NOT childish at all cos you're really having fun without caring about any other damn thing! yup?! =]

and i just came back home from tennis in the morning, badminton with huyu for 10 minutes before going to sean's house. YEAH, HUYU KNOWS SEAN! =] i washed the dishes for sean cos there was a sudden urge. -.-" slacked the whole time there then. tonight, i got to be a nanny; parents are out for wedding dinner so i get to be in charge of the house! WAIT!!!!! you guys know i actually saved $10 this week?????!!!!! $10!!!!! =] CALL ME A SPENDTHRIFT?! kiss my ass lah.

i'm like super hungry now so i better have my dinner now before i start losing the mere source of fats i've in my body. so TATA people! tata sauce.

tml's posting results!

2006-03-03T00:49:00.000+08:00

hey people! it's my second entry of the day! quite a long time since i posted two or more entries in a day. =] anyway, as mentioned earlier in my previous entry, i went to watch sean's play. i seriously waited a million years for dearest richalynn to arrive but luckily, there were jason to accompany to talk on the phone and yew yong to come after i hung up with jason. it's such a pity that i missed one whole chunk of the play but sean, i think you did a fantastic job! =]

it was also the first time i met up with sean's friends- clarice and kevin. i used to think they were snobbish people but i changed my impression of them cos they were super easygoing and friendly. richalynn and sean were STILL teasing each other all the time while i was STILL a himbo, taking 20 seconds to differentiate between a calf and a thigh. well, a himbo is a himbo. =P

i'm like so tired now yet i'm also super nervous over the posting results which would be released in 7 more hours! it's like everything is not confirmed so let's not jump to conclusion which school you would ne entering. pretty apprehensive about AJC cos SAJC sounds more happening; i don't mind mass comm too! why am i still wavering at this point of time?!

and i'm staying home this saturday cos my parents are attending dinner! time to gobble up those books over coffee! =] all right! i'm going off to sleep already so good night everybody! oh ya, hope my seniors would appreciate the thank you cards i'm giving them tml! THANKS CHUN FEN FOR HELPING ME WITH THE TAGBOARD! =]

BYEBYE!

changed blog skin!

2006-03-02T14:39:00.000+08:00

hey everybody! after several failed attempts to change blogskins, i finally half succeeded in this one though my links and tagboard are still haywired. i shall come up with a perfectly working blog next time for all the see! =]

hmmm, it had already boiled down to the last week of school already and instead of cherishing every moment before i leave, i skipped school yesterday and today. i've blogged enough of how much i'll everything within JJC so i shall not continue doing so in this entry but anyhow, I REALLY WILL MISS JJC! skipping lessons and school seemed so mundane to me in JJC so let's hope i can revert back to 100% attendance when term 2 begins! :X

and tomorrow's the posting results which gives me the cold feet! if i was not wrong, there was a slip of results yesterday and SAJC seemed to be a hot choice this year. i'm like wondering what happens if i end up in mass comm which is my third choice? should i appeal out or stay put in that supposed super fun course? the thought of being an editor and journalist seems fulfilling but i guess i've to work on my English first. well, i guess it's all up to MOE to decide.

sidetracking a lil, i'm TRYING MY BEST NOT to be a spendthirft anymore! =] it shocked me how i used to spend money last time cos my parents just gave me how much i wanted so i would just spend with consideration. since this week, i requested for weekly pocket money but everyone around me says i can't survive! yeah, prolly true as i binge a lot! (not convincing given my size right!)

i've 2 books waiting for me to read but i can't seem to leave the computer for now. -.-" anyway, going for sean's play at ACJC later! it's so exciting to see your good friend acting on stage and i think that asshole would do well lah. i guess i'll stop here for now. update next time yeah? =]

2nd last week in JJ.

2006-02-24T23:42:00.000+08:00

back in action again- blogging! heh. i realised that my life in JJ is soooo slack compared to other JCs that I've friends in lah. i've been ponning all my chinese mass lecture, econs tutorials, gp tutorials and maths tutorials (i've NEVER step into a maths class since 26/1/06!) to play badminton/basketball/tennis/volleyball or just slack big time at the cafe. life's so carefree when you just do nothing and stick to a huge group of friendly people. but all good things have to come to an end right and time is like passing by like a bullet train; making me so miserable when i've to face up to the hrash reality that frivolous days would be over soon. i can't be test-free (i had ZERO test in JJ), pon lessons and slack around every single day. these things aside, i'll miss ALL of friends the most lah! they're like the nicest people ever and yet, i've to give them up when we're at the prime of our lives! without them, life is jj would be utter nonsense lah and you'll prolly see me with the justice league (they'll will die if they pon 1 minute of any lesson) every single day! haha. i can't even criticise miss tiong lah. the econs teacher who hates me but i never ever like her too anyway so shut up when you see me, miss tiong bahru. the shitface maths teacher who i don't even know her name! what would my life be without cursing at them?! but of course, there're teachers who i like like yu lao shi who is super caring towards me. i LOVE mr chng but apparently no one shares the same sentiment as me. oh ya, my volleyball friends! so sad that i can never ever have the chance to be trained to play in a competitive cirsumstance and so sad that i can never have the chance to be with J1s in the same team! yah, i'll miss how guohua (my coach) scolds everyone "chee bei" and "ni nia". yah yah, i'll miss the bloody cin heng's thick and ugly eyebrows. and i'll not forget how the mass dances and songs that JJ had taught me. i think i'll also miss how i'm running to school everyday so i wouldn't be late. there're like so many many many thousand memories in school that i would take with me forever and words can't spell everything out. yah, the way mr dore scolds fuck & shit is so funny too. you know we even walked down the bloody spiral staircase backwwards?! and how so many people call me MELMEL in school thanks to yeow hui. argh, this is like getting random already. i really really really really really enjoy myself in the 1st 3 months in JJ and the memories are so remarkable & special that i make sure they would etched right down my toes every moment of life. oh my oh my, next week is the freaking LAST WEEK which i would really cherish and totally make the best of it. start taking photos & those blah blah blah crap. and i'm like bloody 17 and the A level are like next year! O-K-A-Y. that line was for fun so DON'T roll your eyes! <33333>

boring weekends

2006-02-19T17:29:00.000+08:00

HEY ALL! I had a superrrrrrrrrr boring weekend! I stayed home with the intention of saving money but though I achieved that, I WAS OVERWHELMED WITH BOREDOM. The amount of sms I received was pathetic lah but I've wisened up- THE NUMBER OF FRIENDS YOU'VE IS NOT EQUATED TO THE AMOUNT OF SMSES YOU RECEIVE! :]

And...... I decided to wake up and start focusing during lesson times. I'll not pon econs and maths lessons anymore. I'll stop eating at the cafe to save money. LOOK PEOPLE! The realisation I've received over the weekends is rewarding! :]

I shall do more exercise. TRAIN UP!

emo-ing in the train.

2006-02-17T10:41:00.000+08:00

HEY BLOG! I just came back from tennis lesson and my coach bob said I played quite well though I haven't touch the racquet for a pretty long time. When it came to footwork, the hitting & running drained every bit of energy left in me! Wow, it's really tough to train one on one with the coach but nonetheless, it was fun! :]

And when I was travelling from YCK back to Boon Lay, I thought of quite a lot of things. That's the problem when you're alone- the mind tends to drfits away and the memories of the silliest thing recollect nicely into your mind. The thing, however, was that I wasn't pretty happy with the memories that came to thought.

It's just a collage of feelings.

Or is it not?

SUDDENLY......

2006-02-16T21:53:00.000+08:00

Hey people! I suddenly got this urge to blog about a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot of things; it's like s uper mad rush. I was flipping through my report book just now while waiting for my sister to let me use the computer and started to reflect about my results. Just very elated to realise that results of certain subjects had improved over time from sec 3 to O Level. Never in my life I thought I would get A2 for Amaths and B3 for Chemistry when I failed these 2 subjects badly in sec 3 and passed them with 50+ marks in sec 4. Seriously, hard work does pays off at times! :)

Hmmm, I read someone's renewed blog and she talked about her mixed feelings for JJC and I guess I feel like doing that too though I did it in the previous entry. I chose AJC, SAJC, Mass Comm followed by JJC for the JAE registeration. I guess many people were flabbergasted that I didn't choose JJC as my 1st choice cos I proclaimed that I'm in love with everything in JJC including the shitface maths teacher. I just felt that academic studies is still my priorities and I've heard that there's a good environment to study in AJC so that's why I chose AJC over JJC. It's not to condemn JJC and I've to give up many things in JJC if I'm heading for AJC.

Firstly, I've to give up my position as a shadow. It's like a good chance for me to sharpen my leadership & planning skills and never have I had a chance to be in charge of a particular section. Jennifer must be disappointed with me and Qiu Kun shot me a "why leave" face the other day. :( But the most saddening thing is still volleyball. No doubt that I might be the MOST INEXPERIENCED player in the team, at least I know the coach will train me cos there're only a few J1s in the team. Plus, the J1s are super good and they'll teach me but if I shift to AJC where the volleyball team is SUPER GOOD, I'll have NO CHANCE to learn volleyball at all. So...... it's like giving up something that you're starting to learn & like? What the fuck. Wish the JJC volleyball team all the best in their matches!

And I haven't been paying attention in school and I pon econs & maths lessons as if I never pon before. How am I going to survive in AJC? Plus the distance from my house to AJC? What the fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck lah! ): OKAY OKAY OKAY. THAT WAS JUST 10 SECONDS OF CHILDISH WHINING. -_____-" I'm a young adult. I SHOULD LEARN HOW TO PRIORTISE. Like duh. So...... I'll survive! :)

I'm SOOOOO going to skip the road run tml and instead, I'm going for tennis lesson! It feels great to go for tennis lessons after ages of not playing it! Playing in the morning makes things better but I think I'll take a million years to wake up willingly. So if I go AJC, I'll prolly join the tennis team? So I'm like jack of all trades but master of none lah. What the fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck AGAIN.

I'm 17 and I should learn to shut up and stop whining. I really hope I can learn tennis & volleyball in depth. Jason is persuading me to go for training on saturday though I'm soon out of the team already and this kind of thing makes me want to stay in JJC. They're like treating me as a team yet I still...... leave the school? Why're so many things still recollecting when I've chose a school?

I'm like so afraid & confused. Is AJC really it? My studies...... what the fuck for the third fucking time lah. Pon class and the mind never seem to be concentrating. What I'm best is hanging out in town. Wherever I go also will perish right? ): All right. I'm back to square 1 where I'm ranting but I don't give a damn lah. It's my blog anyway. :) I'm beginning to miss everything lah...... RAHHHHH! ): And QIJUN! My beloved dumb & dumber partner! Shit, going to miss her SOOOOO much man! Wait, she's my primary school friend in case you all don't know. WELL, SHOCKED AT THE BOND? You got to be but if you aint, WHATEVER.

I guess I better go now but I can't seem to sort out my feelings after blogging lah. I'll do it on the train tml. Somehow, somewhere. *shrugs* Life's tough at times, especially when it comes to making decisions and that's even tougher if you're talking about RIGHT choices. This is getting more random but life's just random at times if you break away from the norm.

just you & me; JUST YOU & ME.

change my decision again.

2006-02-14T22:24:00.000+08:00

hey! i'm backing to blogging about today. i realised that i keep changing my mind about which jc i'm going. there were CJC, JJC, NYJC and SAJC and today i finally went down to SAJC. well, things over there are pretty happening. :] but after much consideration and REALISATION (spoke to friends, miss chiew, mr cha & mrs nair), i decided to head for ANDERSON JUNIOR COLLEGE! it seems to be a pretty happening school and the school is SOOOOO near to my tennis lesson. okay lah, it's just RIGHT BESIDE. :]

hias. i'm really letting go of jjc. tml i'll stepping down from shadows which is pretty sad but it's inevitable in my case anyway. ): christopher, jason & jun ting are staying on in the volleyball team WITHOUT me! this really makes me more sad as they're good players but I can't train with them after march. well, everything and everything in JJC is lost but i hope the friendship still continues. :] classmates EXCLUDING SHENGWEI, OG 3 and volleyball mates. <33333 you guys for making my 1st 3 months so memorable.

so i'm emo-ing like some i-don't-know-what lah. ): I GOT TO BE DETERMINED. NO MORE JJ.

period.

PERIOD.

PERIOD.

what school?

2006-02-14T00:52:00.000+08:00

Hey people! I woke up at 5.50 today! Like MELVIN SIM JOO KIAT waking up at the wee hours of the day just to go Nanyang Junior College but dearest bimbotic Huyu turned up at 7.34 when we were supposed to meet at 7! -_____-" Huyu, Peiyong and I took bus 105 from Jurong East all the way to Serangoon and it took us 1 hour 20 minutes to reach NYJC. Our 3 asses TOALLY rotted lah. That's why my ass is getting flatter and flatter day by day lah. ): Anyway, the exterior and interior of NYJC is damn chio lah. I never expect NYJC to be so classy and it really looks like a top-notched school. The environment is excellent BUT I need to find a shorter way to NYJC if I'm going there or else I'll be ASSLESS!

After NYJC, we hit the town to meet Nigel Pek. It was so carefree to slack at coffeebean and talked about everything under the sun. Our lives 5 years later...... WHAT WOULD IT BE????? :? Had lunch at NYDC and the food was damn nice lah except Huyu who ordered a DUMB CHICKEN PIE. They accompanied me back to JJC for like 5 minutes? They're just SOOOOO nice! :] Anyway, my intention to go back was for volleyball for ended up in an ogl meeting until 7+ in the evening so I SHOULD HAVE CHOSEN TO PLAY MAHJONG LAH! Hmmm, some unhappy stuffs happened during the meeting and it only applied to me. Oh well. Prolly the seniors are right? W-H-A-T-E-V-E-R.

Although I agree that JJ's teaching is not of quality and I'm prolly leaving for NYJC or SAJC, I seriously still fang bu xia a lot of things in JJC. I don't know why but I think I lost the enthusiasm to be an OGL already but at the same time, I shouldn't fall for hardselling propaganda right? I've a lot of fond memories in JJC especially the orientation camp and the camp was really really really really really superb lah! Plus the volleyball team...... Though I just learnt volleyball (meaning my skills SUCK BIG TIME), I feel that the J1 volleyball team mates are very friendly and willing to teach me. To lose such good friends is really a pitiable loss. WHY CAN'T THEY GO TO THE SAME JC AS ME? ):

I really hate to leave but for the sake of my future, I've not much choice lah. Standing at the threshold of making decisions AGAIN. ): It's already 1.20 and the sentosa pics are still in the midst of sending to Desiree lah.
TML I'LL SURE SLEEP IN ALL THE LECTURES LAH. WHAT THE HELL MAN!

shi jian bu duo le! ):

FUN AT SENTOSA!

2006-02-12T23:50:00.000+08:00

HEY ALL! Let me blog about the trip to sentosa today with a wonderful group of primary school friends, namely DESIREE, HUYU, JUMIE, KELLY, NIGEL AND PEIYONG! :)))))

Hmmm, we met @ 11 but reached sentosa only @ late 1 cos we kept eating along our journey but that's what happens when you've a group of pigs together. Hmmm, we played soccer and volleyball and YEAH, I can do 3 headers while playing soccer! However, my setting for volleyball still SUCK BIG TIME. HOW TO SURVIVE IN A VOLLEYBALL TEAM LIKE THIS?????!!!!! ): But on the brighter side, the water was damn shiok lah! The numerous photos we today were just splendid! <3

And on the way home, I was discussing with Jason about our academic future. I think a lot of people are vexed about which school they're choosing lah. My mind is hovering between JJC and NYJC but tml I'm checking out NYJC. Seriously, I don't mind the travelling time if there are quality teachers there and the things I heard about NYJC is pretty optimistic. Well, at least there's huyu and peiyong who would accompany me! :) And tml we (the 7 of us) are going back to sqps to find Mrs Nair! I miss that indian woman SOOOOO MUCH! <3>

I'm damn tired now lah and only my forearms are tanned! I want my upper body to be tanned lah! My upper body is neither fair nor tanned now- medium cooked. -.- All right. I'm really blabbering nonsense now. NIGHT TO ALL!

*[[a mended heart because of you. HAS MY WORLD BEGIN TO REVOLVE AROUND YOU?]]*

emotional ride

2006-02-12T00:46:00.000+08:00

it has been an emotional ride yesterday and so was today. ): anyway, went to town with huyu today with the intention to shop to get rid of some unhappiness. i only managed to buy a SUPER CHIO nike tee and one notebook but the notebook is not for me though. i searched in vain for horizontal stripe tee lah and so many people were wearing them right in front of me! TALK ABOUT JEALOUSLY AND UNLUCKINESS. ): i'll continue my shopping spree soon. this time, I'LL BUY A HORIZONTAL STRIPE TEE. :]

hias. ignorance is really bliss at times. i shouldn't make that call or else at least i'll still be kept in the dark. sometimes, when the heart just bleeds as it slowly gets tored up by utter disappointment and sadness, you still have to put on a brave front, pretending nothing is happening. to be brave at times when it comes to the matter of the heart is really a challenge. what a challenge......

it doesn't even has a beginning.

it doesn't even has a declaration.

it doesn't even has an existence and who wants it.

argh. i'll get a grip of myself.

faltering;

because of you.

FUCK.

results!

2006-02-11T11:35:00.000+08:00

10th February 2006: Release of O Level results.

Morning: Had a mahjong session with Desiree, Huyu and Nigel over at my place. It was damn fun cos there were always times when all 4 players were on the verge of winning so we were screaming each time whenever someone disposed a tile. Nigel was the biggest loser lah; his chips kept hovering between 20 cents to 50 cents. -.- After that, we played in between, stress and uno as well. Did everything to preoccupy our mind but we can't succeed over time. It was time to go and met Yeu Mei at the bus stop.

Afternoon: Got back our results and there were peers who cried out of happiness and sadness. I didn't know how to console others cos I myself was disappointed with myself. No doubt that I made it into the 5 distinctions list and the aggregate I got was better than prelims, I was disappointed for reaching my aims and the grades of certain subjects robbed me of my smile. This entry is not meant to scorn people but people who've pretty good results can feel disappointed when their targets are not meant.

Evening: Hung out with BMS. It was pretty okay...... Things were pretty lukewarm...... Weird feeling...... *Shrugs* Anyway, the high part came while watching the movie- Casanova. I, being a himbo, INTRODUCED A WRONG MOVIE! The 4 of us thought the cinema belonged to us so we laughed, scorned and talked as if our voices would be gone the next day. We (unintelligently) tried to sneak into the cinema of I Not Stupid 2 but was caught unglamourously by some fucker.

And when all the pleasure stops, it's time to be serious. JJC? NYJC? SAJC? tell me what should i do?????

results tml.

2006-02-09T23:30:00.000+08:00

HEYYA! I'm back to blogging again! I reckon people are starting to have butterflies in their stomaches cos tml will be the release of our results but for the first time in my life, i'm not anxious. Sometimes, pinning too much hope leads to greater disappointment and that kind of feeling sucks to the core. 4E5, i hope you guys do well! :)

And I've a sudden realisation that my life in JJC would be super busy next week. I've photography duty this saturday for the thaipusam festival and reporting time is 6 at boon lay station! I've to wake up super early lah! :( Monday and Tuesday got meeting; Friday got road run then Saturaday got games trial. Pretty packed, isn't it?

And ponning lessons seemed to be my forte now. I've started to pon lessons and the maths teacher is super pissed at me for not attending a single lecture of her's this week but I don't give a damn about her at all. The sight of her pisses the shit out of me and when she starts lecture, I can't help but think of every other thing in the world except MATHS. xP I don't even bother to know her pathetic name lah. Prolly are Mdm Pig or Mdm Shitface lah.

Blog about today towning session! :] Headed off to town with Huyu(Qijun) after school and we had a minor window shopping session. I'm going to buy the adidas sports tee, CHECK shorts & tee. I'VE TO GET THEM BADLY! :] Anyway, we had bimbo & himbo sessions too such as what happens when a tornado strikes. HURHUR. Huyu will die if there's really a tornado lah. -.- Des came to join us and we watched I Not Stupid 2. It was super nice lah! My dearest Huyu cried the most lah. The bimbo is so emotional.

151515151515151515151515151515151515151515151515151515! <3

back in action!

2006-01-28T10:44:00.000+08:00

HELLOOOOO!!!!! It has been 15 days since i last blogged but it isn't a bad thing after all, at least I don't get addicted to the computer. I've a lot in mind to update before switching on the computer but each time I come here, I seemed to lose touch as to what to blog about.

A couple of things to blog about school life. Evidently, I've lost the enthusiasm to study cos my mind often drifts off to places that I shouldn't be in but I believe I'll buck up in time to come. I hate econs mass lecture BIG TIME, it's either the male teachers droning on and on, oblivious to students dozing off or the old hag who keeps screaming into the microphone like some scalded hens. Ironically, LEP which is difficult is my favourite subject now! Though those china people never fail to make me feel stupid during lessons, learning chinese is really enjoyable. You know I can memorise poems?!

Erm, I got selected to be an OGL for orientation 2 2006 but I'm a "shadow", as in I'm in the planning committee. I did have hesitation at first not only cos I can't be in contact with the campers, planning is never easy anyway. It's quite irritating to see certain people trying to create a breakthrough desperately. Never mind though. The real plan haven't been drafted out so we better not jump into conclusions so fast; it's unpredictable anyway.

And now about volleyball! I can say like a million times that I really like to play volleyball! =) Despite having to train alone at times or sit beside the coach seeing them play, I really enjoy my volleyball practices. It's prolly how everyone starts out being a junior but after the competition in april, the coach will start focusing on the juniors! Last wednesday as in 4 days ago, the coach suddenly asked me to play with those seasoned players and we were like expected to direct an incoming ball towards two chairs but as long as ten balls hit those chairs, that particular practice will be over. Numerous attempts brought us to nine balls and...... *drumrolls* I HIT THE LAST BALL! YEAH!!!!! =)

I really feel homely in JJC- classmates (though we're a small class!), friends (schoolmates and volleyball mates) and the way the school runs things. It's just a place where I want to be and never in my life, I've participated so actively in school stuffs! Proud of myself! *pats on the shoulder* Back to BBSS yesterday. Didn't really catch up much with friends and teachers but I guess it's okay. It's just the initial awkwardness. Made friends with alex and ken and we played touch rugby! Nice game for running your ass off! =) And went town-ing with desiree, huyu, jumie, kelly, nigel and peiyong. It was once again mass eating session and like usual, fun fun fun!

And today is cny eve and yet again, there's no atmosphere of it at all! But I've new clothes to look forward to! =) Erm, it's a pretty long entry and the fact that no chattable people are online, it's time to go off. OH YA! O level results are going to be released sooooo soon! Sigh. Very worried.

[[each time i see you, adrenaline rushes through. it's through you i feel myself. what am i supposed to do? what am i supposed to say? you make me lose myself. YOU YOU YOU.]]

Weekends.

2006-01-14T22:23:00.001+08:00

Hi! It's the weekends and school has been okay for me. Mr Dore's class is getting a little bit more interesting but I hope whatever he teaches is relevant to english literature. Mr Dore uses the word "shit" in class pretty frequently as well. :X "Don't give me that shit that you're late because you're in the toilet. The Americians called it the restrooms but we call it toilet so cut that crap out!"

And I put my name down in hockey, squash and volleyball as cca. I went for the volleyball training today and the seniors treated me as if I were part of team which pretty much ease my tension. One mere training and the aftermath is that both of arms are bruised pretty severly. Patches of spots which make my arms look like a map. There's still hockey trials of wednesday to look forward to! :]

And the new timetable is released already. It's always on mondays and fridays that my timetable stretches all the way to late evening. PC ON MONDAY & TUESDAY. Someone out there, SAVE ME FROM THOSE DEMONS! (the pc teachers) -cries out loud- )): Anyway, my class only got 7 people which I think is the smallest class in JJC- L6HO1. My classmates look stressful to me. :X

Awwww. How I miss BBSS, primary school friends and secondary friends. It had been long since I've seen them and want to know how're they getting on. PLEASE FOGET ME NOT OR I'LL SKIN ALL OF YOU ALIVE! -demands- Heh. I better get going. Online-ing is unappealing now.

stop.it.before.it.starts.AGAIN.

Weekends.

2006-01-14T22:23:00.000+08:00

JC life.

2006-01-10T15:45:00.000+08:00

hey! hmmm, lectures had begun in school already. i think english literature will be fun cos not only do the texts sound interesting, mr dore is pretty amusing. it's the first time in my life i've an angmoh teacher and the only thing i hate about him is he writes SO hard that the marker squeaks horrendously! LEP is worrying. my chinese is DEFINITELY 1 of the lousiest in the class cos the class is FLOODED with cheena poks. those pompous barbarians think their chinese is so good so they kept conversing in chim chim chinese. WHATEVER LAH. ): maths was okay. need some revision.

i hope i can be in the tennis team and part of the students' council. not trying to show off but i felt that my 10 years of school life seems pretty dull without much active participation for the school so i hope my life is JJ (at least for the 1st 3 months) would be more spiced up. tml lectures better be fun. =)

all right. i guess i'll blog until here. reading up on some yanyus.

JJC ORIENTATION CAMP! :]

2006-01-07T20:57:00.000+08:00

HEY!!!!! i'm back from the BEST CAMP ever in my life! JJC orientation camp- Kaleidoscope of Life is SUPERB! (F1's cheer!) these 3 days really mark a happy beginning of 2006! :]

ice breakers: all these games held at the family spot really cracked the shit out of me cos not only the games were fun, the forfeits were really hilarious. i feel really lucky cos i never kena forfeit before! just admit i'm good at games lah. =P and when we were playing double wacko right, people kept mixing up "kelvin and melvin" and "nicholas and patrick"! i got this super duper blur partner (kelvin) who can only remember 1 name so each time my name is called, i feel 1 galleon of pee waiting to burst out in anxiety.

mass dance: actually should be mass danceS cos we completed 9 dances during jj nite! i got 3 dance partners, huijun, mat and mindy. it's so saddening that being bimbo & himbo, huijun and i can't dance THAT well but we still anyhow shake shake here and shake shake there! mat was my frequent dance partner and we really get 95% of the steps wrong so we often end up a few thousand steps behind everyone. mindy is really a super shaker can?! =)

song singing: a lot of songs were sang and during the jj nite, it was very touched. everyone locked arms, sang together and threw lightsticks around. i finally understood the meaning of 1 big jj family. :)

telematch & world of combat: THE OG 3 TEAM shone! :] got dunked in flour and soap, sprawled in mud and water bombs! there were so many games and OG 3 was proud to cheat ONLY a little lah! :X i love to get dirty and managed to smash papayas on celestine!

and of course, there were a lot more games and i love how we cheer everyday for everything! it's really ultimate and when we wrapped up the camp with "emotional web", i guessed everyone teared. it's so emotional and really must thank my beloved OG 3 for everything lah! <3>

i really miss JJ lah! please bring me back to time! ): anyhow, lessons resuming next week and i end at 4 on monday & friday just because i've pe from 3-4. please save me lah! tuesday is even more -.- , i start school at 7+ but i only got 2 lessons and the 1st lesson starts at 11! ): but nvm. I'LL STILL LOVE JJ!

IT'S ONLY GOODNIGHT, NOT GOODBYE. (:

JJC orientation!

2006-01-03T22:50:00.000+08:00

hey! it's the first day of school and JJC's orientation is a blast! the college itself is SO united and you got to cheer for EVERYTHING, including teachers going up to stage to give speech. the mr liao (or however you spell his name) can really crack my ass man.

"blood type A don't write blood type B ah. later anything happens and we give the wrong blood, you turn blue ah."

"got this student cannot eat 40 kinds of food ah! might as well jia cao."

anyway, yesterday went to play pool with nicholas, richalynn and zhi zhang. it was so fun! LIKE DUH!

I'LL NEVER GIVE UP ON YOU. (kinda didn't die.)

2006!

2006-01-01T06:36:00.000+08:00

Hey all! I just came home not long ago and I'm blogging now at 6.35 in the morning! It's finally 2006, much after anticipation! :] Hmmm, had to meet up with chao bimbo- Jiaxin and Sean at City Hall at 8 but we all turned up late. I THOUGHT I was the earliest but oh well, it turned out that I'm the latest. PLEASE TELL ME WHY I'M ALWAYS LATE.

Bimbo & Himbo session:

Melvin: "Sean, pineapples grow on trees ah?"

Sean: "Chao himbo! Last year I went to Geography trip then they showed us that pineapples grow on the ground loh. The short laavi (laavanyah) ah, wore the shirt hang on the shoulders ah so the teacher went "GIRL AH!""

Melvin: "K lah k lah."

-Jiaxin came out from the toilet-

Melvin: "Jiaxin! You know pineapples grow on the ground?"

Jiaxin: "HUH?! Really meh? Thought grow on trees one?"

After that, we met up with Richalynn plus Daniel, Jiawei and Kai Jie. Chao Sean. Made me laughed until like some mad cow in the cafe- "EH! LOOK! TOUR ONLY GOT 4 PEOPLE!" -_____-" Headed for the esplanade and the fireworks were SO fantastic and sparkling! Jiaxin ah, "2006 LE MA?! 2006 LE MA?! 2006 LE MA?" This chao twit ah, "na ge yan hua hen xiang hua leh! ta ma de, nan ge ren si bei gao leh!" WAH, stupid twit did not realised that the guy was tall as he was putting resting his son on his shoulders! -_____-"

Called miss chiew and miss punitha after countdown then later, left me, richalynn and sean. Headed to coffee bean then richalynn's mum place. I was entertaining 2 walking zombies cos I was very perked up after drinking double expresso! :] Watched bimbotic Charlie Angels with Sean while Richalynn died on the sofa. Woof, BACK TO HOME SWEET HOME! :]

Heh. That's how I spent my New Year Eve with BMS! <3>

31st December.

2005-12-31T14:05:00.000+08:00

hey! i love tennis lesson today! i was on form and played pretty well but i think i'll still too lousy to join a school team. ): backhand! forehand! SMASH! :]

hmmm, i got a rather meaningful and prolly true quote to share which is "how come we always don't know when love begins but always know when it ends?"

what is LOVE?

BMSS!

2005-12-31T00:54:00.000+08:00

hello! it's already the 31st and soon, we'll ushering year 2006! let's all look forward to the new chapters waiting for us to pen down but don't forget all the deeply etched nostalgic memories! today met up with the authentic BMS in the early evening but richalynn had to attend her class chalet. update about the funny incidents. (quite himbotic)

1) chao jx and sean laughed at me cos i tried to open the bag of famous amos cookies the other way in which it was sealed.

2) chao jx and sean laughed at me (again) cos i pronounced professor snape as "professor snap". is it THAT funny?!

3) i mimiced xinyi trying to give jiaxin a xin li che yan. i've a problem with short tongued people. :X

4) i laughed until i nearly puked all the famous amos cookies i consumed man- got this chao auntie board the same bus as us and i SERIOUSLY think it was the 1st time she used an ez link card. she waved her card VIGOUROUSLY above the censor then somemore exclaimed so loud "eh hubby! how to use ah?!" what a BIG clown man.

erm, had been chatting with yi xuan about JJC. i'm excited to finally pursue what i want and that's in the arts field and what's more, i'm studying LEP but my chinese is way below the standard. never mind. work hard; that's the solution! :] and i'll be walking to school everyday (acting). i'll prolly give up and take the bus after 1 week. :X

i better get going. tml having tennis lesson but i reckon i can't wake up so tml instead of hearing the birds chirp, i'll hear my mum screaming "NI YAO BU YAO QU DE?!"

let's groove to the beat! :]

and of course...... blue blue blue!

2005!

2005-12-29T23:58:00.000+08:00

Hey! Had a family day today cos my dad took leave but things did not went out too smoothly. I always love to see how my parents leashed out all the uncouth vulgarities at each other but make up later; how my sisters love to enstrangle themselves into catfights and endless bitching sessions. I watched King Kong with my family today and personally, I didn't really enjoy the movie. There were still a lot of ridiculous loopholes despite suspending disbelief. Was a disappointment on a whole. ):

Sidetrack a lil, UNGLAM MOMENTS OF MY PARENTS WHILE QUARRELING-
dad: "ka ni na bu chao chee bye lah!"
mum: "kan ni de ma ma de chao chee bye zai chao chu kang lah!" (referring to my grandmother)

I was laughing so hard that I staggered into the cinema and people looked at me as if I was drunk. -.- Anyway, it's already the 30th of December already, meaning 2005 is coming to a closure while we'll ushering in 2006. I reckon everyone is heading all different paths from this threshold and it's prolly a good chance to move on; who doesn't need to move on in life? Let me reminisce for a while.

Erm, it's just excellent that the Os are finally over. I hope hard work really pays off cos I really tried to be consistent throughout the year; doing revision, ks-ing sessions after school with teachers and sacrificing social leisures! Life in BBSS had been a rollercoaster ride, bringing me up to the highest peak but at the same time, trashing me harshly to the pit (sec 2). Sometimes, we just have to learn our lessons in the hard way but at least through the pain, I realised that life should be treasured beyond anything cos the gift of life only comes once most of time and with life, it is what everything of your's begins to grow. :]

And how can I not mention about the slpendid classes I was posted in over the 4 years in which innumerable incidents happened but many still etched deeply in my mind. How Mr Neo's handphone rang while he was scolding us like a mad bull, how they commented about Mdm Nim's oversized chest and how we cheated Mdm Goh to chase after "anderson". I really miss the teachers such as Mrs Goh and Mrs Toh and the vibrant classroom life itself. I wouldn't mind wearing school socks now lah! Sometimes it's so contradicting, how we curse the school so much but in the end, graduate reluctantly.

Better not get too touchy over this topic but as long as memories are in my mind, everything's fine! I shall look forward to JJC now as more friends are joining in, even yeu mei! Woohoo! :] But for now, I better get back to MSN.

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2005-12-28T17:23:00.000+08:00

hey! i guess it'll be random blogging again. i watched narnia with both of my sisters yesterday and the movie was great! narnia really made moi day. :] actually, sitting at the first row (which we obviously did) wasn't that bad as we thought; just that you got to elevate your head and your neck wouldn't have cramps either. GO WATCH NARNIA! :]

hias. there's something wrong with my data cable so i can't transfer stuffs from moi comp to moi hp! this is so saddening lah, to have a chio phone but the content is not appetising at all. ):

and i need to complain about friendster again. i can't write testimonials for my friends cos of some pathetic technical faults. i really want to shoot those people who start friendster man. SERIOUSLY. sigh. TYPICAL SINGAPOREAN AT WORK; complaining complaining complaining.

but i shall learn to look on the bright side of life! dad's taking leave tml and we're going out! i've to go down to esplanade to borrow moi book and repair moi data cable! plus, we're watching king kong, which i however, am not that keen to watch.

argh! bimbo just reminded me that school's going to start soon. i'm re-using my old bag and pencilcase, unlike bimbo who's buying new stuffs. SUCH A SPENDTHRIFT! tsk tsk tsk! :X i wonder how's JJC going to be like man. oh ya, i'm going to LEP! those china people inside are going to drown me with their liu qiang hua jian or liu qiang hua she. whatever, MAKE THE BEST OUT OF EVERYTHING! (adapted from sean's blog) :]

all right, i shall end this entry now. erm...... nvm.

back!

2005-12-26T17:20:00.000+08:00

I'm a good sleeper. I slept from 7.30 in the morning to 7.30 in the evening on christmas day. I slept at 2 in the morning today and woke up at 12.30 in the afternoon. This is one great thing about holidays, replenishing sleep loss that was robbed away when I was schooling. :]

Friendster is really such a pain in the ass and if you're having a bad day, refrain from entering friendster. I was trying to post new pictures but due to the slow pace friendster works, it took a million years for things to be done and worse, NOT all were successfully posted. To console myself, I shall just think of the gasping moments in friendster when you chance upon some awesome pictures. :]

I want to go to the esplanade library to borrow the book "merchant of venice", go to 2E1 reunion chalet and watch the chronicles of narnia! Sadly, I can't go for the reunion chalet cos the time slot slot clashes with my tennis lesson! Yio Chu Kang is SO out of the way from Sentosa. ): And I'm seriously dying to watch the chronicles of narnia! I WANT TO WATCH! :]

I finally got "harry potter and the half blood prince"! I'm excited to read but it's quite pathetic to share a book with 3 people. Please Evon, I need to get the book from you so it would be 2 books sharing among 3 people! This is really getting random lah so I guess I'll just stop here.

WHO'S GOING TO JJC?!

CHRISTMAS!

2005-12-26T00:28:00.000+08:00

MERRY BELATED CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE! ((: i'm quite excited to blog about what happened on christmas eve! :] i started off the day with tennis and moi coach finally found out moi weak point. it's just that i tend to prepare moi swing fast so that's why i either miss the ball or hit it to the neighbouring court. tennis is without doubt, the best sport i played in my whole life. =)

after tennis, i had to rush to matthew's house cos his mum prepared lunch for us. i felt sooooo out of place cos not only i was the latest, his mum served lunch to me personally! it was quite enjoyable; gifts exchange, people dancing around, random chats plus a lil of eyes feasting. oh ya, met matthew's friend- dharshini who is REALLY a bimbo. she possesses the figure of a bimbo (healthy development) and used to think HAM WAS MADE FROM HAMSTERS. that isn't bimbotic, what is?

hmmm, the party at desiree's house was up next. it was awesome and it was like a small primary school gathering- desiree, hafiz, huyu, jinghan, jumie, moi, nigel and peiyong. these wonderful people really made moi night splendid! :] as usual, moi and nigel ate the most at the buffet cos we were hungry scavengers. bimbo & himbo were quite pissed with hafiz cos of those games that he played with us. it's okay bimbo, we're just too smart for those games! had gifts exchange and i reckon everyone was happy. oh ya, does the perfume really smelt like urine? -.-

esplanade was up next. on the train journey, bimbo & himbo were entertaining everyone though we knew we were embarrassing ourselves but since it's christmas, i'll do anything to have fun! played finger guessing game and wu gui wu gui tiao! the sad thing was that moi losing streak caused moi palms to be reddened by huyu's constant whacking! we got so high that we had a race to see who reached the control station first and yeah nigel, you're NOT moi match! (himbo power!) ((: had some alcohol along the way and we finally settled down somewhere along the street without irritating ah bengs disturbing us to share stories.

and slow and steady, we strolled all the way to raffles area and along the way, we chatted about love. defination of love and expectations of a bf and gf. i hope as years go by when the 8 of us meet up again with our bf and gf, we shall talk about our expectations of them AGAIN. it would definitely be different. we had supper at lau pat sa before heading down to raffles station to wait for the 1st train. we proceeded to keep talking all the way...... until i came back home to sleep after much anticipation! 7.30 in the morning to 7.30 in the evening; i slept for a whopping 12 hours without disturbances BUT i still feeling sleepy now! xP

all i can say is that i spent this christmas meaningfully with 7 other fantastic friends who definitely, really and seriously made that nice so special! oh well. that's what friends are for anyway! :] and i thank everyone who had gave moi presents, set me cards and sent me smses. i love all of you! i'm really tired. need to sleep again so good night!

back!

2005-12-23T00:42:00.000+08:00

Hey! I haven't been blogging for 4 days already but all this while, I've been doing christmas shopping for moi family and friends! I kept returning to bugis for one million times already lah. xP

Monday: Hmmm, nigel came over to moi house for lunch+nap+dinner. Oh shit. This sounds gay BUT we're straight people; our parents iron us frequently. What a cold joke. =P After that, headed to town with him and my sister to town to do christmas shopping (to no avail though) and we met up with desiree, huyu and jinghan for dinner at pastamania! I'M TOTALLY LOVING PASTAMANIA NOW! :]

Tuesday: Headed to bugis with jinghan, mum and sisters and we bought half of bugis home as christmas presents.

Wednesday: I felt bad to pangseh moi tennis coach and sean they all. ): Anyway, I was supposed to meet Huyu at 9.45 as we were supposed to catch perhaps love at 10.15 but BOTH the bimbo & himbo were late. I came at 10 while she came 10.18. Look's who the late king/queen man! =P Headed to bugis (again) with bimbo cos she needed to buy christmas presents. Obviously, we had fun bo-ing around but bimbo was complaining about spending a lot of money when HALF of it was spent on herself. Tsk tsk tsk. -.- Met up with Pei Yong after that but bimbo had to leave. Oh ya, Pei Yong said I've a good memory! She's impressed by a himbo! :]

Today: Headed to bugis (again again!) to moi sis to buy christmas present for moi mum and wrapped almost all the present I bought when we came home. Moi sis (gina) has such a BIG mouth; she revealed the present we got for our mum. She better feels lucky that I didn't wrap her up as a present to the bangla under moi block.

Anyway, let me comment about the movie- Perhaps Love which was an excellent movie but it sets us thinking. I felt that the show reflected a very pessimistic image about love and such a portrayal of love is devoid of feelings that warm your heart like how a hot cup of tea warms your throat on a cold day. Is it a must that in the realm of love, someone always has to suffer? Love is bittersweet and irrational because sometimes, our expectations of a "fairytale ending" devoid our hearts to accomodate thoughts of failures so it's particularly jarring when we're rudely awakened by the fact that a seemingly perfect relationship cripples as it can't withstand the external pressures. "Remembering never change anything"- this statement is true because sometimes we plunge into utter sadness when our hearts go through pandemonium of emotion upheavals; we fail to realise that somethings, eventually cannot be changed but on the other hand, I would say some memories are really unforgettable. Well, perhaps love is someting everyone seeks to be made perfect but perhaps love isn't what makes us whole after all.

outing at Great World City.

2005-12-19T01:05:00.000+08:00

hey! i guess moi feelings went a lil out of control last night but i've got over it. i mean what's over is over and it's true i've tried moi best to patch the things up but sean is right, what matters now is they themselves solving the problems. let's hope things are on the mend.

i woke exceptionally late today; at 2.30 in the afternoon and went on to continue writing several christmas cards. managed to write for everyone who cards need to be sent by post so at least, one load off moi chest. :] in the evening, went to great world city for dinner at pastamania and shopping for christmas presents. what more can i ask more when i bought an extremely nice Le Coq (hope it's spelt correctly) tee! ((: but saddening enough, 5 more days for moi to buy presents. can i make it?!

call me a mountain tortoise but this wednesday, i'll be going to kbox for the 1st time with benedict, jiaxin, richalynn and sean. it has been long since i talked to jiaxin. the saddening fact is that I CAN'T SING FOR NUTS LAH! think twinkle twinkle little stars is difficult enough. whatever lah; most to most i end up eating nuts and of course...... do some stuffs to entertain moiself. =P

and i wana to blog about something else. remember william that i once blogged about longggggggggg time ago? richalynn told moi he joined star idol. TO HIS SUPPORTERS, i've his number! :] okay. this is getting really very random so i reckon i'll stop here. take care!

i failed.

2005-12-18T02:48:00.000+08:00

hmmm, i think i should reply to tags first. To Mathangi: I'm glad things cleared up between the two of us and yeah, all thes best in AJC. To Yeu Mei: Haha. It was really fun lah; those bus rides! Once I give you your xmas present, it shall be reduce to 29 presents already! That's better than nothing! ((:

had quite a number of conversations just now going on and things obviously didn't turned out to be what i expected of to be. i mean who don't hope for the best right, everyone does! not trying to act noble and saint but i tried moi best to bring everyone together but maybe i neglected the degree of pain that surged through certain people and the conversation was made worse with silly comments. now i'm lost as to how i'm feeling now.

this sucks, really.

hias.

2005-12-17T22:54:00.000+08:00

hey! i shall not blog about the happenings in moi life yesterday and today in this particular entry. just want to comment or rather give moi two cents worth regarding the raging wars between groups of friends that are around moi now. the "groups of friends"; i reckon you guys know who your identities are.

evidently, in most friendships, there're bound to be bickers, conflicts and friction between different people but unfortunately, instead of rectifying the problems, we formed cliques within the big group of friends and start to pit against one another so definitely, all these little unsolved conflicts will build up to form one big bubble of detest, hatred and rage for the other group of friends you don't like. look at the blogs of the people involved, ensuing menancing insults for one another. these remarks that were bitterly lashed out are definitely not sweet enough to be digested and we being 16 years old, should be able to handle such things in a more responsible and sensible manner. you guys haven't notice that we're like a bunch of frivolous 5 years old kids, "i don't friend you, you don't friend me"; except that 5 years old kids are not capable of such crude remarks.

however, what's more appalling is that we used to be such good friends, hanging out with one another after school and talking endlessly online. look at the testimonials you guys wrote for one another, rekindle the love and NOT just start pointing fingers at certain people and say nasty stuffs. seriously, i don't think it's worthwhile to spend your holidays scolding your used-to-be best friends and you guys should know that having more friends is better than having more enemies! things should not end up in such a pathetic state at all.

call me corny for saying all the things i've mentioned above. call me foolish and naive for making things sound as though patching up is very easy. call me hypocritical for saying all these BUT i just want to say that i really hope that all of us could be friends again. (please don't give a i-don't-give-it-a-damn look) i shall make some very honest confessions here:

jiaxin: i admitted i found you irritating during a certain period of times because you kept butting in when people were talking and your endless talkings about guys pissed moi off.

laa: sometimes your bitching gets so overboard that i wonder what you'll say about moi behind moi back if i ever offended you one day.

mathangi: i don't like it when you don't respect the fact that i chose JJC and your comments about matthew.

matthew: sometimes you can be poking your nose into others' matters unneccesarily.

richalynn: seriously, nothing.

sean: you being egoistic.

end of my confessions. i'm sorry if you guys are pissed but i agree with laa that we've to be honest; HOWEVER, i don't say all those to piss you guys. look, i'm can be such a shit as well, insulting moi indians friends and people's chests. people, we all have our flaws and the fact that no one is perfect should have sank into our brains by now. sometimes, we should learn to accept people warts and all though it can be difficult, we, being friends should be open to frank opinions. to reflect back, i've moi fault for kp-ing jiaxin with you guys, saying she's irritating BUT instead of gossiping about her behind her back, we should tell her he problem. yes, she might be hurt initially but she'll understand right, jiaxin?

as mentioned earlier, patching up MIGHT NOT be easy like how words can be strung together but recall the smses you sent to the people you hate, recall the times you spend and recall those loving testimonials you wrote in friendster. i know some of us might be SOOOOO insulted that you think it's redundant to patch up but take a step back, we should NOT point fingers now and prolly in mathangi's mind, you're thinking, "matthew asked me to shut up blah blah blah".i know you're hurt but haven't we say other things that hurt others as well? we're so sensitive to others' comments BUT had we thought of the poor souls we insulted?

it's human nature to feel angry but friends, i address you guys as friends. let's bury the hatchet and STOP complaining that "i'm not done with this fucker!", "i still fucking hate this bitch!" and "why must i apologise?" sometimes, anger and hatred get the better of us that we lose control over our words and these words that were said out slit us so badly. we all have flaws; i'm ready to accept us as friends again, why aren't you guys ready?

can say that i'm not a direct party involved in the entanglement BUT because of the fact that i'm outside the circle, i see what's happening more clearly. christmas is coming. it's the best time to patch up as it's all about caring, loving and sharing. oh, you can call it corny but these words are what they keep friendship going so this christmas is best to forget the hatred and we march into 2006, without seething with rage.

lastly, i know we're heading separate ways but that's not a reason to fuck your friends off. life is so short (YOU GUYS KNOW IT!) and would it be any good if you just cancelling friends off your list?! these are the things i want to say to all the people whose head are filled with anger and hatred. you guys are my friends and you know how sucky is it to be caught in between?

i plead with all of you. let it go. we ALL can be friends, right?

insult.

2005-12-16T12:39:00.000+08:00

argh! i can't tahan anymore. i detest people who apparently look down on neighbouring junior colleges and just due to the fact that more supposedly prestigous junior colleges are doing better, it doesn't mean that other neighbouring junior colleges are faring a lot worse in comparison okay?! look, no matter how good a junior college it, it all eventually boils down to how hardworking a student is or else the junior college you entered is merely a useless label.

everyone is entitled to his or her own choice of junior college and it doesn't mean that if someone enters a lousier jc, his or her own capabilities are being doubted. if that's so, the mindset of such people are unfortunately, shockingly shallow.

so don't fucking hell tell moi JJC sucks when you've entered _____. yeah, you're indeed in a better jc than moi BUT does that make you a better person that moi? YOU DECIDE, miss look-down-on-jjc.

posting

2005-12-16T12:12:00.000+08:00

hey! i got into moi 1st choice jc- JJC (arts) and to the bimbos, HUIJUN AND QIJUN, you girls are moi classmates! so all the BOs like arts lah! we're quite appreciative over the beauty of words. ((: and sean! congratulations for entering acjc! it's great you're staying put in singapore! ((:

but there's a problem. i'm having a lukewarm response over moi entry into JJC. now i'm wondering if i can enter LEP or not and should i not get in, i'll appeal to SAJC. should i?

out with richalynn and sean!

2005-12-16T02:08:00.000+08:00

hellooooo! hmmm, went out with richalynn and sean today! it brought back memories that with jiaxin, the old BMS could be formed once again. nice memories we had and that's without doubt. ((:

and we went to town first then bugis to do our chirtmas shopping. i was quite successful! managed to buy presents for jinghan, richalynn and the world sexiest man alive. the best thing is that moi dad just gave moi $100 to buy presents for moi friends! thanks dad! the sad thing is I'M CLUELESS AS OF WHAT TO BUY MAN! ): anyway, richalynn and sean, i had an awesome time with you guys today! ((:

oh ya, HUIJUN AND QI JUN AH, when can the both of you meet ah?! the 2 BIGGEST bimbos that i've met in moi life. 1 who wanted to meet edison everyday in her life and 1 who taugh flipping a coin was such a difficult task that no one had ever accomplished in his life. xP

all right. i shall stop blogging here now so good night people!

ah, how can i forget to say good night to tbp?! quit eating or you'll pile up on the kilos! so terrible that you're fat YET you don't even realise it?! well well well, the best xmas present is prolly a mirror to serve as a wake up call or a surgeon who can help remove your excessive fats which is sufficient to cater to all the hungry kids in the world!

wednesday!

2005-12-14T23:20:00.000+08:00

hey! to desiree, huijun and jinghan, i'm very sorry to mention about the long forgotten O in moi previous entry. was being overwhelmed by being an "emo-freak" hence the blabbering. =X hias. i MUST learn to be punctual in the future man. i was supposed to meet desiree at 12+ at her house but i woke up at 1.40 and reached there only at 3.05! i was 3 hours late and she was bored to her toes. sorry ah, lcb. =X

anyway, today was quite a sweat-it-all-out session. desiree and i met peiyong to go bukit gombak stadium to jog (yes, desiree and i were late) and it turned out that i ran the most! sean, i can jog okay! ((: after that, went to play tennis! oh my! today we learnt how to bloody hell serve! wayyyyy too cool man! ((: after that, went to venezia to had ice-cream dinner. expensive but nice.

ah. it's another day tml. let's hope it'll be fun and SHIT! xams presents how???????????!!!!!!!!!! :(

emo!

2005-12-14T02:18:00.000+08:00

hey. i feel like an emo freak out of a sudden so let me rant non-stop okay but to start off, i bought a present for jessi today but i still have quite a number of presents to go! this is fucking shit lah and xmas is less than 2 weeks away! :( and dee and huijun, i'm sorry we've to pangseh you girls on thursday due to some reasons. however, we can still go out next week except monday okay?

and hui jun! why must you mention about O levels in your blog? :( double maths, english and physcics were okay but NOT the rest. i had to rush through the last question of the SBQ for ss and moi history essay was a lil bit off the timeframe so i'm afraid moi combined humans will slip. moi poem intepration for literature is crap lah and the last thing i wana to remember is chemistry lah! thinking for so long when copper don't react with steam at all! tsk tsk tsk! why am i so stupid????? why must my hopes for Os be so wavering????? :( it's so depressing to know that you didn't give it all for a major examination that decide your life at this threshold.

and i miss BBSS despite having some rotten memories that i DON'T WANT to ever revisit again. i remembered the day i took 174 to meet richalynn and sean at westmall; it was the 1st time i took 174 after O ended. there's no yeu mei to accompany moi along the trip! :( hias. i TOTALLY can remember how ks we can be during the 15 minutes bus trip; it's either gossiping or those endless conversations about studying. talking about studying, i can remember how much of a nerd i was lah. -.-
and how can i forget the teachers?! i love mrs goh lah despite her relentless insults on moi "being a worker" and "having no common sense". sometimes ah, this sheep can transform herself into a dog as she's so bitchy but at the end of the day, she just want moi to realise moi blind spots. that's the bestest best sheep ever! ((: and mrs toh. entertainer number 1 and she cursed huijun that she never will have a husband cos the bimbo said "TALK COCK!" in class. WAHAHA! =P

as much as i can complain now, changes are inevitable and come 2006, we'll be splitting up yet again. i really hope that moi secondary school friends will be like primary school friends, still keeping in close contact. whatever it is, good luck to all of you guys okay? ((:

and i haven't mention the immense fun i had online tonight! hahahahaha! i think i'll be going to hell soon lah! =P mb.

HAHAHAHAHA! oh well; GOOD NIGHT!

died twice!

2005-12-13T00:42:00.000+08:00

hey! i never take the train today, for the first time after a week. read harry potter and the order phoneix in the early afternoon and the first few chapters were not exciting at all. what a disappointment but i'll still continue to support harry potter nonetheless! ((: during evening time, went to jp to check out for new specs and moi eyes were hurting so much as I kept changing lenses of different degrees. i wasn't even interested to scrutinise for nice specs cos moi mood wasn't there anymore so after window-shopping in jp, dad picked us up.

anyway...... i "died" twice today while using the computer. the first incident was when i was in friendster and saw one particularly amazing photo and was overwhelmed shortly! the second incident was the chat with ABC and yup, i can conclude that he's a nice guy so richalynn, GO GET HIM! 11 months difference only! ((:

bloody sean is so horny now. talking about his experiences with he-must-not-be-named. wahaha!- the himbo thinks he's melvin potter. =P anyway, dee was quite bimbotic online just now.

"aiya. i can't sing also so if we go kbox, i shall whisper into the mike!" oh moi holy cow lah dee, the mike is there to AMPLIFY YOUR VOICE!

enough amusement for today now.

bye!

matthew and sean smooched!

2005-12-12T02:12:00.000+08:00

hey all! i realised that for this whole week, i never stay home for long at all cos i've been out frequently. the worse thing is i've not enough cash to spare now! :( hmmm, went out with desiree and huyu (the bimbo) yesterday. huyu, I TOLD YOU it's torturous to accompany desiree for the interview cos THAT DISORGANISED company takes ages for a pathetic interview! that's the price to pay if you don't listen to a himbo! (afterall, i got half a brain more than you) ((:

eh, the 3 of us fled from NYDC to marche cos the food in NYDC was far less appealing compared to marche. obviously, the food was excellent as usual especially the waffle topped with caramel bananas and tiramisu ice-cream! that's the good thing about being skinny- guilty free after wolfing down fattening stuffs! we had a major BO session, cracking desiree's ass upside down. ((: after doing dumb stuffs like going to mandarin hotel just to use the toilet, sitting in coffee bean without buying any drinks just to ogle at people and trying to walk 3 steps forward and 2 steps backwards in the compound of taka, we headed home! unfortunately for desiree, we saw someone unexpectedly but desiree, jiayou to get over him! ((:

i shall blog about today now- went out with richalynn and sean. it was boring initially so let's skipped the front part of the day. the fun started when benedict called us!!!!! yeah richalynn, i can SO see you grinning at the screen like some ABC idiot now! =P cut short AGAIN- headed to matthew's house to join in the celebrations of his mum's birthday and i TOTALLY love the way his mum speaks, so accurate and ear-pleasing! obviously, sean was fantastic at socialising while i was acting soft-spoken all the time in front of the group of well-heeled people in the enormous house matthew lives in! oh ya richalynn, ABC is not bad lah and plus points for ABC for distributing the cake to moi! WAHAHA! =P hmmm, some uncomfortable things unfolded in front of moi eyes but let's just say i just realised i'm more conservative in that kind of situation but don't worry, i'm not judging anybody! really; it's just i feel uncomfortable throughout the...... unfolding of the...... "human connection". whatever it is, i hope i can be more understanding.

i'm finally staying home tml after peiyong ps-ed moi! it's good for moi to stay home lah, embrace the family warmth. moi jokes. shall go entertain sean now who's very disturbed over some overwhelming twits who think punctuating their sentences with "eu", "kekex", "nehx", "nia" and "worx" is very cool but APPARENTLY, NO! these TWITS (yes, TWITS) definitely learn PROPER ENGLISH FOR VAIN and think following such an act-cute culture is worthy when itis obviously NOT THE CASE IN THE OPINIONS OF MORE SANE PEOPLE. to these annoying and igorant twits, it is suggest that you girls/guys start getting a life and yeah, of course, start learning PROPER ENGLISH from scratch. ((:

good night readers.

Tennis.

2005-12-10T14:05:00.000+08:00

Nothing's better than to spend the morning playing tennis but coach kept reprimanding moi about moi forehand. Though got improved a bit, I still played like shit man. Whenever it comes to hitting low balls, either I missed it or I scratched the racquet against the floor! =X Meeting bimbo and desiree later for window shopping for christmas presents. Such a headache to buy presents when there's a budget to keep within.

YESTERDAY: I went to desiree's house for mahjong then we delibrated whether to go to Jinghan's chalet or not and in the end, we decided to go as planned. Though there was a limited variety of food to be barbequed, we had fun trying to create a bigger fire and making our own food. Well, the unfortuate thing was that we had a little dispute with _____ but let's hope _____ is appeased now.

It's just that there are bound to be some friction between friends and let's hope we all will tide over this real soon. Let's not let all these silly things affect our friendships all right? To _____, if you're reading this, contact us okay? You're our biggest sis leh! :)

Shall stop blogging here then. Take care people!

outing with 4 girls.

2005-12-09T01:34:00.000+08:00

i didn't stay home faithfully today again. i think moi house has become a temporary hotel for moi in the month of december. tsk tsk tsk. *shake head* i started off the day by meeting desiree to go for her job interview at tanjong pajar. sorry desiree for sleeping thrice after you called and messaged moi! =X i was so bored while waiting for the interview to end that i ended up pacing up and down at the same area for an hour! sigh. some people just don't understand that FIRST IMPRESSION COUNTS so it's stupid to dress up sloppily. they prolly left their brains in their mothers' wombs.

after that, went to meet jinghan, kelly and peiyong. to sum up the whole day, it's just constant eating, especially kelly and moi. skinny people can eat a lot okay! ((: and i must mention 2 things. first thing is, kelly's relationship with her boyfriend is so open, sweet and unexpected. their love is really made is heaven and then cemented 16 years later. ((: second thing is we're proud of our primary school friends' bonds! we love us, TOTALLY. ((:

heh. tml is finger exercise at desiree's house then we'll be going over to jinghan's chalet. ((: i want to lay my feet in the sand! okay lah, i'm done with blogging. take care people! =)

BIMBO & HIMBO ; PERFECT.

out again.

2005-12-07T22:35:00.000+08:00

hey!!!!! i'm going to say: I LOVE THE LIFE I'M LEADING RIGHT NOW!!!!! what more can i say other than it's so carefree?! =)

YESTERDAY: moi mum, two sisters and the 4 jokers (celine, jinghan, moi and nigel) went to queen street to do random shopping and we combed almost every nook and cranny of the place! nigel was practically dying as the day drew on. =P and i got moiself a new bag! it's very plain but i like it that way. =) had lunch at the taman jurong food centre (READERS, THE FOOD THERE IS VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY NICE!) then we went over to desiree's house to play mahjong. it was nice to exercise both moi fingers and legs yesterday. =)

TODAY: i was supposed to meet celine at 7.45 for a jogging session but i only reached there at 8.10 so obviously, i thought i was late but i was taken aback when she wasn't to be found. so i called her only to find out she's STILL SLEEPING so i waited...... and waited...... and waited...... and waited...... and waited...... she appeared at 8.49! 10 years best friends so i've to forgive her. =) i realised i've to jog often cos moi stamina wore off very soon. =( after jogging, went to celine's place and i had a fun time messing up her house and we had to entertain dearest nigel junior (celine's brother) before going over to desiree's house to play mahjong AGAIN! huyu came along as well so the bimbo and himbo unite again! wahaha! =P

huyu can really crack moi up with her bimbotic sessions but i love her still as a friend. huyu, i think you should really consider clearly and make up your mind as soon as possible. if this goes on, it hurts 2 people but i wana tell you that it's tough for 2 people to like each other for so long so you prolly want to take that in for consideration? oh ya, HAVE MORE CONFIDENCE IN YOURSELF! ****** sounds like a nice guy to moi BUT i think jiaming is better! WAHAHA! =X

tml- going out with desiree and peiyong.

friday- jinghan's chalet.

saturday- tennis lesson.

I CAN'T WAIT FOR TML AND TML TML AND TML TML TML TO COME!!!!! IT'S TIME TO PARTY!

hmmm

2005-12-05T23:56:00.000+08:00

hey! i decided to change the blogskin into a much simpler one so TA DA! i'm just too lazy to link moi friends and rid the orange words. (is it orange?- colourblind) =P Hmmm, today was more or less a slack day cos I only went over to Pei Yong's house with Desiree. Poor Desiree had to nurse a broken heart when she's ill but girl, STAY STRONG ALL RIGHT! ((: Came home around 8.30 after sending Desiree home only to find out I've to eat another round of fish head curry. -.-

i'm excited over tml! please let moi get both a nice bag and pants! ((: hmmm, females and males really think very differently and it's quite difficult to maintain a relationship now unless you're really ready for the ups and downs of it. it's like sometimes you THINK you're doing a right thing YET your partner totally disagrees, you'll feel prolly angry and flabbergasted about the stark contrast. relationship is not only to share common interests but to reveal the differences between 2 people; but how many can withstand the differences that come along? sigh, corny love lines are SO over.

is it wrong to be too determined?

loss of events.

2005-12-04T02:04:00.000+08:00

hmmm, it had been a couple of days since i blogged. THURSDAY: i went to bugis and town with min min and moi sister for job hunting. sad to say, it's tough for moi to get a job cos those employers want people who can work up till march which is impossible for moi so for this holidays, I SHALL DEPEND ON MOI MUM! =X i hope min min finds a job soon so she can treat moi for lunch! WAHAHA! =P

FRIDAY: i went out with moi family to chinatown and queen street. we finally got a proper memory card for the sleek camera so we can start taking photos soon! ((: queen street (bugis street) TOTALLY ROCKS MOI SOCKS OFF! shall shop for moi pants and "1 compartment bag" next tuesday. shopping after examinations is madness man! ((:

TODAY: i pon tennis class not cos i was too lazy to get up but i was pissed at moi mum's comments. i seriously wana smash a tennis ball right into her face for blabbering rubbish. TENNIS IS MOI PASSION SO DON'T BE A SMARTIE PANTS TO DOUBT THE TRUTH OF IT. *argh* had dinner at lemongrass restaurant. i detested much of the main course and the only thing that was nice was prolly the mango pudding. it's bad to be picky when it comes to food. I WANT BANANA SMOOTHIE FOR MARCHE! ((:

It's sunday already. (2.31 am) Later must go all the way to pasir ris to celebrate moi lil cousin's birthday. Slight craving to eat cake now man. WELL, I CAN AFFORD TO BE FAT! ((: anyway, sean's prolly sleeping now (he arrived already!) and i'm excited to go out with him and super happy that i drawn up an exercise regime with richalynn for this holidays! christmas shopping and partying are up next! woohoo! ((:

SOME PICTURES CAN SEND MAD RUSH OF ADRENALINE INTO MOI, TOTALLY! ((:

normal day.

2005-11-30T17:37:00.000+08:00

i'm back again! i shall blog about yesterday when i went out with dee, huijun and lewis. it's a very weird combination but apart from stoning several times, it was good. 'just like heaven' was a super nice movie and we kept eating throughout the outing, except for lewis who was more interested in melting young girls' hearts. :P and this reminds moi that i NEED to be at least 55 kg before 2005 comes to a closure! PLEASE MAKE MOI EAT.

and today is quite a relaxing day for moi, apart from the splitting headache and stubborn flu. i've been reading harry potter recently and still ploughing through the 3rd book now. WHICH KIND SOUL CAN LEND MOI THE MOVIES?! ((: I promise to take super good care of it!

heh. i'm going out with min min and moi sis tml to enquiry for jobs. let's hope that the vacanies are still there or i'll stuff the telephone down the "INTERNET SAVVY SECURITY GUARD'S" throat, right celine, jinghan and pek? :P and friday will be a utter shopping day! i want belt and pants! now! now! now! now! now! shut up melvin.

i've blogged enough and to dee (if you're reading), i THINK i found the soundtrack of "just like heaven" already! till then, TAKE CARE READERS!

troubled.

2005-11-28T22:13:00.000+08:00

hello to all! i finished Harry Potter and the chamber of secret in the evening! it was another excellent douse of Harry Potter and very soon i'll move on to the 3rd book. oh yeah! the Harry Potter fever is starting to consume moi now! (:

all of a sudden, i feel...... troubled. and when such feelings come, one seemed to think of ALL the bad things that can possibly happen. i'm worried over moi Os now cos of moi stumble in both chemistry and history papers but as much as i know THE FREAKING EXAMINATIONS ARE OVER, i just feel insecure now. i've this STRONG feeling i can't survive well in jc but neither do i like a course in poly. so i'm worried over moi post secondary education now. this is seriously DAMN SHIT.

and i hate my attitude sometimes cos it changes frequently. how can i be best friends with someone last year and now I HATE THE WAY THAT SOMEONE BEHAVES?! i totally cannot stand someone's childish behaviour and someone's lackadaisical approach to almost everything in the world. WHAT A BIG FAT FUCKING BITCH! *argh!* fuck. i hate moiself. so much for NOT JUDGING. that's why i say i hate moi attitude sometimes. )):

damn. i hope such things blow away soon or else i'm easily irritable. SIGH OUT LOUD.

HARRY POTTER!

2005-11-27T18:45:00.000+08:00

heyhey! i'm so elated now cos just finished harry potter and the philosopher's stone and yeah, i'm anticipating to read the 2nd and 3rd books lying on the table prominently! i regretted disliking harry potter last time or else i wouldn't have to be a slowpoke as such. PROCLIAMED MOISELF AS A HARRY POTTER FANATIC NOW! ((: and i've to thank celine ng kai yin for lending moi the books so generously. 10 years best friends, what you expect! ((:

heh. i managed not to spend money over this weekend already and shall only go out with moi family until tuesday. quite fun to stay home and very boring to keep going out ah! -.- moi tummy is growling madly again so moi parents better take us out for dinner soon before moi bones perished as well. RAHHHHH!

and something's troubling moi, it's about the past. i don't know how to string moi thoughts into words and please understand if moi words are not put across so pleasant to the eyes. (this is a CLEAR WARNING) i know i've told you i've long got over the past and sad to say, i'm still clueless how to eradicate the awkwardness between us. it's like an emotion i can't control so i apologise for making you think as if you're the one trying to build up a normal friendship while i'm not contributing. i wouldn't say you're wrong but i moiself am unsure about this pressence of awkwardness within moi so hence the...... wrong impression of moi on you. thank you for your presents all this while and yeah, it's time i highlight moi appreciation here. ((: i hope you understand moi predicament, something that i can't make out exactly too cos moi mind is not sorted out yet.

[love me for a reason, and let the reason be love] --> awwwww, this sentence is so beautiful. "The truth...... It is a beautiful and terrible thing, and should therefore be treated with great caution.] --> extracted from what Dumbledore said. ((:

HARRY POTTER!!!!!

home.

2005-11-26T17:52:00.000+08:00

i'm loving tennis more and more and more! i'm supposed to reach yio chu kang by 10 for tennis class but we (moi family with the exception of dad) reached there about 5 minutes late cos i couldn't wake up in time so moi mum took the chance to nag at moi CONTINOUSLY until we reached the court. O-K-A-Y, i get it, we're late cos of moi BUT her incessant nagging was unbearable and since it's MOI fault, i kept RATHER quiet. (so i argued a little) whatever.

anyway, our tennis skills are really not up to standard. i managed to get the grip of forehand a lil but some balls were blasted into the other courts. -.- and gina was WALKING towards the ball when she's supposed to RUN. poor coach was shaking his puny head but we all could sense his helplessness. yeah, coach has serious memory problems- he calls moi marcus/mervin and he calls sara stella. -.-

heh. i'm SO in love with harry potter now and i shall stay home to complete the 1st 3 books! yeah, i know i'm slow but it's okay; at least i know about harry potter NOW. ((: i can't stand some stand-offish people who think are intelligent and observant that they go around shooting their mouths off unneccessarily; commenting about how dumb some people are and the worst, HOW SMART THEY'RE. santa must have come early this year to deliver moi such a JOKE. these people seriously need to wish for a common wish for christmas- "I NEED A LIFE SO BADLY!" they're really HUGE HUGE HUGE eyesores.

i'm waiting for dinner to come now. moi stomach is rumbling. )):

I LOVE THAT BARNEY SONG THAT CELINE SANG ABOUT COW! I'M SO IN LOVE WITH COWS; ESPECIALLY SUSAN PEK'S COW! WAHAHA! =PpPpP

big fuck. i've no cash. sighhhhhhhhhh!

i'm here again!

2005-11-25T23:30:00.000+08:00

hey! i shall blog about prom first. i was taken aback in a pleasant way to see BBSS students dressed up to the nines! the students really tried to dress up strikingly but it's quite sad to see such a united school culture only at the last day and the teachers forgot to add in some touching elements to this beautiful night. :( but the most distinct thing was that camera flashes went off in an ensuing manner and we were like blinded every 5 seconds cos we were SUPER EXCITED! ((: PLEASE SEND THE PHOTOS TO MOI OKAY! ((:

and i shall blog about yesterday now. celine, moi and pek went down to bugis for job hunting! it was tiring to walk down the throng of streets there and we met with some unsuitable job offers. there was this super amusing security guard who thought he was VERY INTERNET SAVVY so he kept blabbering nonsense about finding jobs through the internet. we can seriously take over his fucking job lah! =P and they came over to moi house to visit their godmother and played mahjong. once again, PEK IS THE WORST FEEDER PLAYER IN THE GAME and that celine was so freaking lucky lah! seriously, i want to stuff tiles up pek's white asshole man. we all had fun before leaving with pek's intention of wearing a SIZE 36 pants for work when his waist is as small as moi. you can just tell moi nigel pek joe chin is a big joker lah. -.-

as for today, i went down to JJC with say khwee and yeu mei. hias, the registeration process is super messy and how the hell i know they wanted original copies of some academic documents when i ALREADY PHOTOCOPIED for them?????!!!!! since that lady didn't believe moi documents, i couldn't have the JJC stamp so moi chance of entering LEP is lowered but as i browsed through the applicants, moi L1R5 is the 2nd. (i'm NOT being a proud ass) so i hope JJC accept moi into LEP!!!!! *please!!!!!*

after that, i met up with desiree to find her sis, her sis's boyfriend and huyu. desiree and i were idiots trying hard to use the ipod but i managed to on the volume control okay! desiree's sis's boyfriend got lost in paragon and throughout the night, we couldn't find him. think that's amusing, the boyfriend's name is ah pong. -.- anyway, we just hung around in town, bimbo-ed, himbo-ed, makan dinner and we made our way home. i shall pray that desiree can learn how to play tennis with us. ((: and celine told moi that nigel went to work with her today at the hotel banquet and pek's nametag stated- SUSAN! i laughed on the phone like some clown lah. SUSAN PEK AH COW! WAHAHA! =PpPpP

hias. i'm so sick of going out and spending money. it's so unfilial to have your mum funding for your outings so i shall stay home until next wednesday cos will be watching move with dee, hui jun and lewis. luckily celine lent moi her harry potter books and we went to borrow some books as well. please, let moi stay at home for 5 days without going out shopping or whatever! that's so himbo-tic lah. THERE'S TENNIS TML, FINALLY! ((: i pon tennis so often during Os but since Os is over, TENNIS HERE I COME! i shall re-fine moi tennis skills then join tennis team in JC.

it's a pretty long entry so i shall end here now. life is SO NICE NOW! ((: it seriously sucks wehn you know you should not do somethings, yet you still give in to foolish temptations! sigh!

GOD-SIBLINGS.

2005-11-23T13:16:00.000+08:00

YESTERDAY WAS A BIG BLAST! ((: I went out with celine, desiree (she joined us late), jinghan, nigel and of course, moi family. (dad joined us for dinner) Have I mentioned a god family was formed and before you jump to conclusion we're childish people to start off this family thing, I'll urge you to GET A LIFE. Come on, we shouldn't keep judging people so STOP JUDGING MOI.

Biggest Bro: Nigel.
Second Sis: Celine.
Third Sis: Jinghan.
Forth Bro: Yours truly.
Fifth Sis: Sara. (moi real sis)
Sixth sis: Gina. (moi real sis)
MOTHER OF ALL MOTHERS: My mother. (they really love her!)

Hmmm, i must really thank them for combing town with moi for 3 days straight and yesterday was shopping for shoes. I got the pony shoes from stadium. (pony is a brand; not the lady lady shoes. -.-) I seemed to have forget some parts of yesterday but I remembered going to far east to eat fried calamaries and mars bars! Super super super nice! ((: And we stole 2 bottles of drinks. Hias. One family full of thieves.

And we went to meet desiree and moi dad for dinner at this chinese restaurant and people really looked at moi mum for giving birth to 7 kids. Heh heh heh. I wouldn't mind such a HUGE family leh. The warmth we shared made us HAPPY PEOPLE! ((: Ate ate ate. Talk cock talk cock talk cock then went over to moi house with the exception of jinghan. )): Hope her 1st day at work would be good! They came over to play mahjong; pek cheebye is such a lousy feeder! Wanted to like forced tiles down his fucking white throat and yeah, the usual- celine never fail to scream at almost every game. =P

After that, Celine and Desiree left so went down to the kiosk with pek to wait for his dad. Heh, after that, came home, bathed and laid flat on moi inviting bed all the way to 12+. I FORGOT TO GO TO THE FUCKING TALKING IN SCHOOL! I need help lah or else that's the end of moi. Sigh. Want to find a job and learn french during the hols but doubt I'll be successful lah as I'm a LAZY LAZY LAZY boy! )):

Enough of yada-ing! I'm going for a prom later and we'll make grand hyatt rocking with BBSS people all right! Let's hope I wouldn't look ugly so the whole world wouldn't puke at moi. Should I stay over at celine's place after prom? :?

If it's isn't fate, why did I got in touch with so many things of your's? That's just too much.

=)

2005-11-21T21:37:00.000+08:00

I'm back to blog again! It's really so liberated and nice to be freed of the imprisonment of studying hard for examinations man. That's the LIFE we want. ((:

I'm a HAPPY BOY today as well! I went to cut hair in the early afternoon and we didn't go to Hafiz's house in the end. So long since I visited a malay friend's place! :( Celine, Hafiz, Jinghan and Nigel came to house from the afternoon until 9 with the exception of NIGEL PEK COMING LATE AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN! Heh. It was fun having them over; eating and talking about primary school life. We just can't get enough of MRS NAIR right? ((:

And the best thing is, we're meeting tml again, with moi mum! BIG BIG BIG GROUP! Moi friends really like moi family, especially moi mum. That's why. ((: Moi mum rocks to the bits!

Blemishes now. I just feel that I'm quite detached from some people. Like I feel that we were best of buds in school this year then when we started not talking, things just went downhill. Sigh. We should really try to get back together you should know who I'm referring to.

Sadness; OUT!

I'm SOOOOO excited over TML!

Happy!

2005-11-21T02:32:00.000+08:00

Hey! It was a good day today. (:

Jinghan and I went to town to search for moi prom attire and Singapore is really pathetically small cos the whole place was flocked with BBSS students buying prom stuffs. Lucky not moi see moi cos moi hair was disastrous. TOTALLY. =(

Anyway, I LOVE MOI MOTHER! She came to town to sponsor moi black pants and she spent $246 in the shop- x square and we can get a discount card for usage even at POA! This is the good thing about mothers; they dote on their children. :) But a frog cannot change into a prince so please don't laugh at moi during prom. I'll look ugly. =(

All right. I'm going to cut hair tml and meet those clowns to go Hafiz's house for a GOOD FEAST! Life without exams is the BEST BEST BEST BEST BEST! No books! No papers! No stress! Today, I'm a happy boy but I'm worried for prom. Why those inferiority acting up now man?

Whatever.

I bet heaven must be making a sport out of moi cos there's too much coincidental things happening recently. Or is it a sign?

HELL WITH CRUSHES!

O IS OVER!

2005-11-19T22:04:00.000+08:00

It had been long since i last blogged and O LEVEL is finally over!!!!!!!!!! Months of sacrificing brainjuices, inks and sleep, the monster is finally beaten! (: Hmmm, confidence level not as high for english and the sciences. The rest should be okay. Will good results await moi?

Anyway, I came home at 7 in the morning today so I'm totally shagged lah! =( After chem paper, went to watch Harry Potter with some classmates though I know NOTHING about that show at all but in the end, I'm quite interested about all the sequences from the start of Harry Potter so I shall read all the books during the holidays! (: And we saw sara's sisters and mrs toh in the movie! There's this woman who glared at us when vignash said "see what see lah, chao cheebye." =PpPpP

After that, I went to meet Richalynn and wanted to meet Nicholas but he was at Zhi Zhang's house. Heh. So went to Zhi Zhang's house to play mahjong. (: It was fun to play mahjong with a bunch of fun pros and Nicholas was so sweet to Richalynn lah. Oh man. Why didn't she die there? =PpPpP And ya, we both discovered some horrible truths when we chatted after a long time. So as time drew on, it was six in the morning so I had to go home already. That was so fun; to stay up sooooo late! (:

I just came home from moi cousin's wedding and it was unique for moi cos it was held in a church. The whole process went well, tainted with touching scenes and yummylicious food. (: The BEST part was I saw Samantha. (:(:(:(:(: BEAUTY LIES IN THE EYES OF THE BEHOLDER SO SHE'S CHIO K! There was this guitarist that moi sis and I noticed and we thought he was wang lee hom due to the striking resemblance. Thought I saw a mega mega mega star man! =O

I miss going out with celine, jinghan and pek but it's okay! On monday, we're going out to hafiz's place for Hari Raya. Please, let it be blasting! Prom night too. Taxing on the mind about making decisions on what to where. :( And I better concentrate on moi tennis class and spend more time with moi family since lotsa talking to them during preparations for Os.

Heh. It's going to be a relaxing holidays! Take care friends!

I miss you.

stupid

2005-11-03T00:59:00.000+08:00

fuck.
i told you moi B3 for physcis for prelims is so NOT moi standard.
i've never gotten over 60 for physics BEFORE.
why should i be happy when

I FLUNG CTSS PHYSICS PAPER 1!
i'm demoralised.

i knew it.
i'm not not good.

sighhhhh!

and O is coming, sooner than before.

boo!

2005-10-31T01:32:00.000+08:00

hey! i'm here...... to blog again.

first up, we're done with the physics practical. i wouldn't say the practical was difficult but instead, it requires us to think and sad to say, i think my extensions were wrong. TSK TSK TSK. well, i'm just glad that BOTH PRACTICALS ARE OVER! :)

i'm getting the jitters already cos it's just 1 more week to the REAL REAL REAL Os! it's really coming now and whether we're prepared, just gear up! please please please please please DON'T let me have a blank out. sigh! worrying again. =(

after Os, it's time to reflect. reflect. reflect. reflect. what've i done?

forget it. if it's meant to end up that way, so be it. it wasn't BEST friends to start with, am i right?

it's a vicious cycle. pissed pissed pissed pissed pissed. WHAT'S UP WITH THIS SHIT MAN?????

if it's so difficult then we should all just end it, at least i think i should.

I MISS CELINE, JINGHAN AND PEK CHEEBYE! 8 POINTS FOR O LEVEL! :)

and of course dearest meh meh,
i'll strive for the double distinctions.

<3 OH POH CHOO to her wool straightens lah!

sighhhhh

2005-10-26T20:50:00.000+08:00

i got 2 cute parents. i'm SEVERELY UNDERWEIGHT this year and since i'm running a fever now, they think i've dengue fever! oh no! please! tml i shall see a doctor after moi physics prac or else i'll taking all moi examinations in the hospital! =X

argh! i'm quite scared now as well and today only manage to complete 2 amaths papers. sighhhhh. where's the productivity?! =(

chao sean! "JUST SLAM IT" very funny is it? -_______________________________-

hmmmmm. itchy itchy heart. =P

woohoo!

2005-10-26T10:29:00.000+08:00

another o level paper down! chemistry practical was managable yesterday and i definitely WOULDN'T get 0 for titration! :) i really have to thank miss chua for helping moi and to those invigilators, I'M REALLY COLOURBLIND LAH! -_____-

but the sad thing is i'm down with a fever so can't mug last night. i hope i can mug today and tml is physics practical. let's slam it man and punitha haven't show us the experiment she promised! tsk tsk tsk!

i've seen so much more. life just don't go the way we want. sighhhhhhhhhh.

i'm a rude piece of shit man. seriously.

EMO!

2005-10-22T17:36:00.000+08:00

hey!

i did not purposely skip school last friday which was considered as the last day in school. i was down with gastrics the previous night and was pretty bad so i decided to reast at home but IF I COULD HAVE STEEL MOISELF. sigh. the feeling to regret sucks big time man. :(

i miss all the important practical briefings and most importantly, the encouraging words of all the teachers, no matter how much they said cos we never know how their words had the magical power to spur us on. just to console moiself, everything happens for a reason so i better take it in moi stride. :)

i admit i've a lot of bad memories in school but i'll still miss this school despite the pathetic conditions at some parts of the compounds such as the classrooms, field and toilets; some authorities in school who i TOTALLY AM DISGUSTED BY THE WAY THEY DEALT WITH THINGS and the bbss SCHOOL SOCKS. prolly the teachers think they were some cutie pies by introducing school socks but too bad, they should really really really try harder.

sometimes it just bizzare, how you hate something when you actually love them as well. to these teachers, i must say you guys are really VERY SPECIAL in your own ways.

mrs toh: i can never forget her cos she's moi english teacher for 4 years straight! i'll miss her concern for all her students and those super exaggerated actions! oh up till now, dearest mrs toh, if you ever this, I STILL CAN'T DIFFERENTIATE BETWEEN THE MAPS YOU DREW OF CHINA AND INDIA! -.-"

mrs goh: chao sheep! i really think you can teach double maths very well and you deserve moi utmost respect. =) and your sarcasm spurred moi on! please stop calling yourself an old lady lah, you're a graceful sheep! =P

i really respect those 2 teachers and let's all do well to repay their kindness!

memories

2005-10-15T19:54:00.000+08:00

here am i again.

memories do wonders man. you just smile naturally when you recall some heartwarming stuffs.

i just read sean's old entries. i miss those days when the authentic BMS just hanged out at his place to chat about stuffs, eat maggi mee, SEE THAT PATHETIC AH LUO and well, let our ears be enticed by sean playing the piano. it was really really really simple, but fun. just fun. so nice.

of course, sec 1 and sec 2 but without those memories of...... very rough patches. :) how we teased ALL the teachers like mdm nim and that eight packs, those naughty boys' hilarious behaviour and 2E1 messy image. we're just so bustling with energy. we're just us.

and primary school! moi favourite- enough said. min nair! :):):):):)

changes changes changes changes changes.

i want time to turn back and just so innocent. I WANT TIME TO GO BACK INSTANTLY!

i'll be all your friends.

i promise, if you're genuine.

MEMORIES. X)

sigh.

2005-10-15T18:38:00.000+08:00

hey. i don't know what's the problem lah. i feel lethargic for days and those headaches keep haunting moi continuously. it's definitely not a burn-out cos moi effort is not enough lah. sigh. where's the ability to study? =(

anyway, i managed to clear some chem papers already- acs(i), amkss, chij katong convent, and river valley papers. moi organic and salt preparation suck lah. why i mug so hard sooooo hard for chem yet i only got C5 for prelims? why? =( i got this feeling i'll screw moi Os majorly man. sigh! why must all bad things befall on moi at this point of time? WHY?????

anyway, it was fun having celine, jinghan and nigel over last night. CELINE WENT BACK ON HER WORDS. She said she wouldn't scream, neither would she rape moi while watching a ghost show but UNFORTUNATELY, both of it happened CONSTANTLY. tsk, but 10 years liao so i shall not blame her. :) it's fun having them fooling around! miss them already lah.

graduation is coming closer. i don't see the bonding in our class getting stronger. it's the last year already! we should get together! :) but though it's sad to separate, it's inevitable. it's just part and parcel of life. i think people like jiaxin, laa, mathangi and richalynn would end up at different places as moi from. 3 of them except mathangi heading for CJC while i'm probably staying at JJC. =)

but for now, just concentrate on the exams though I hope both the holiday trips come sooner!!!!! let's be the done with Os soon but carefully cos much effort have been prepared for the papers. well, hope this batch can do BBSS proud. yeah! =]

Hmmmmm.

2005-10-14T14:50:00.000+08:00

Friday is here again! I better stop sleeping and start mugging. I really lost the momentum and zest man. Ss paper never do structured essay at all. What the fuck! -_____- Lucky Mr Cha did not collect or else I'll be shot.

Papers and papers are coming in. START MUGGING! :) Mrs Goh actually praised moi today. She was I'm organised. This sheep is so lovable man! *KiSsEs*

And that SOH LIANG YING. Chao kingshaw! Forever acting smart man. Insulted moi and yeu mei cos we took the challenging chem paper. Stupid fat piece of shit, LOOK AT YOURSELF, you NEVER EVER PASS A SINGLE AMATHS TEST. You should really laugh at yourself man. *DoDo* And please, reflect on yourself why people comment about you. I used to think you're pitiful but no more man. Why're you so proud of yourself?! You better not forget something man, MALVOLIO.

Anyway, Kin Man is nice. He's not so stone after all. =)

Go bathe liao so bye bye.

frustrated!

2005-10-09T19:19:00.000+08:00

argh! i'm feeling really dumb now man! stumbling at questions in different subjects. that's bad news. =( maybe what Jinghan said is true, i gave it moi best during the prelims so i'm shagged now. please don't let it happen. regain moi momentum soon please!

BAH BAH BAH BAH BAH!

We're canoes.

2005-10-07T17:02:00.000+08:00

Hey! I'm finally here again. :) Erm, the prelims had passed and I'm quite happy with moi 12 points. It's quite unexpected so let's hope I can maintain this score. Should be going JJC for the LEP despite people's objections. Well, JJC is NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT lousy so stop insulting the school.

I admit I've a bad impression of Mr Quek all this while but today, it all changed. =) He's such a nice person and he taught english before! Looks are indeed deceiving man. =P Anyway, I like something meaningful he said- "You all are like little canoes, leaving the harbour to go out to the sea, whether you're ready or not."

Everything is falling into place so fast, so fast that we might be caught unknowingly. Leaving BBSS after the last paper for Os and though I admit I've a lot of bad memories in this school, I've vivid memories that are great too. Met some great friends and great teachers and of course, learning lessons for past experience. Sigh. This harbour gives moi such nostalgic memories that I'm reluctant to leave. 4 years in this school so there're definitely certain attachments. =)

Each day comes and goes like this. I haven't forget moi primary school friends and I wouldn't forget them. Moi secondary school friends- some nice people out there. Richalynn. Yeu Mei. Yi Xuan. =) Come on people. Let's not forget each other when we leave BBSS. We shall all be nice. We shall. =)

It's down to the last preparation for the final battle. Mock exams beef us up then we'll head for the Os. Sigh. This feeling I wouldn't do well. Yu gan. =( I'm super super super paranoid. Sighhhhh. Why? Why? Why? Why? Why?

[Can we cherish this dream together? Let's not let go. Please. We'll be there for each other.]

=)

2005-09-27T10:34:00.000+08:00

finally, i saw it all. i shall not stoop so low anymore.

shittttt

2005-09-25T21:26:00.000+08:00

here i come again, online. i really addicted to the computer already. please! shall curb all this after tml!

fuck. i just reminded moiself about tml. i'm going to hit 18, 19 or 20 which i don't want lah! i want to go jc for 1st 3 months and minimum JJC lah. sigh! sigh! sigh!

english summary.
amaths paper 1.
chem paper 2 section B.
physics paper 2 section B.
lit paperS.
combined humanities paperS.
and of course, those confirmed pracs.

those are moi worries lah. shit. =( i'm going to party online now. WHATEVER LAH.

yo!

2005-09-25T12:27:00.000+08:00

i'm really satisfied with life for this weekends! those books in the room remained untouched and those recurring formulas exited from moi brain temporary. yes, PARTYING THIS WEEKEND IS FUN! :)

but the horror starts tml AGAIN. maybe we shouldn't be fearful of our results, at least for moi. wait, please DON'T jump to conclusion i'm a smartie pie yet. =) i know i'm not going to do well this time, espeically for lit and sciences. this prelims is moi source of motivation cos those mistakes made WOULD NOT appear for moi Os! :)

i screwed both moi pracs in case you all don't know.

woes of chem prac.

1) due to clourblindness, i got 23.0 for titration. fucking 23 when everyone in the world got 20.something. ms chua can happily give moi a 0 for that section lah.

2) wrong identification of ions.

woes of physics prac.

1) 20 oscillations : 13.8s
period?
i used 20/13.8 when it's the other way round! -_____-

pracs pulled moi down lah. =(

anyway, mrs tan msged moi on friday. she asked some questions and think i disappointed her? sorryyyyy! there's still grace and weiyi right?

all right!
back to msn!

bye!

errrrr!

2005-09-24T10:55:00.000+08:00

i don't know where to start from to reply tags so thanks everybody who read moi blog! please continue to do so! :)

i miss those bloody clowns.

celine.
jinghan.
nigel.

fun!

2005-09-23T23:24:00.000+08:00

23/9/05- today is totally a fun day man! :) i hope everyday could be like this, letting the day passed by with happiness.

to start off, the prelims are finally finally finally finally finally over!!!!! woohoooooooooo!!!!! :) i can score distinction for chem paper 1 but the other sections are so fucked up man. it's so disappointing man. monday. next monday. the moment of truth for all the results. wait anxiously for them to come back all for me.

anyway, i and thangi help chiu to locate the teacher assistant who i've totally no clue about. witty moi claimed he was moi distant relative in front of the fatass miss dianah. -_____- ate long john at lot 1 then played some card games. i'm seriously a pro in bluff but no luck with shithead. i was the shithead twice and we only played that game twice. this shows i'm a totally shithead. :) i love bridge! it's bloody addictive and lampa, we won 10 sets before the final victory man. it was a good try though! -best partners- :)

met up with beloved celine, jinghan and nigel after that. totally love them with a capital t man! :) the four of us were not that high before that but after some aimless walking, we became the crasiest people in town man!

[bao-moi-ass] hahahahaha!!!!!!!!!! nigel was like trying to tell us this friend of his that will be meeting us but we just couldn't catch her fucking name. so much of graduating from 6f/2001. we were in the best english class man! -_____-

the 3 of us to nigel(for the millionth time): "what's her name- bao what?"

nigel(frustrated reply): "bao your kuku lah. tsk, bao moi ass lah!"

after which, bao moi ass appeared and when she turned, the 3 of us burst out laughing. she was wearing this super low cut mini skirt and when she turned over, half her ass was revealed. that name really suited her man! =PpPpP but she's tall and very model-like. sexxxxxyyyyy mama.

[bridging] heh. i taught them how to play bridge at starbucks. they are addicted too! told ya bridge was fun but nigel pek joe chin kept trumping over moi in the train when it was fucking obvious i was his partner throughout the game! what the hell? -_____- at starbucks, we tried to pronouce some freaking coffee names and we ended up: "can i've a ice blended...... erm...... blah blah blah?!" -_____- and those 3 savengers were ruthlessly attacking the pubic hair topped upon moi jap rice. k lah. seaweeds, not pubic hair. yeah, we thought starbucks was some kopitiam by placing the fucking tray on another table.

[celine raped moi] tsk tsk tsk. :( there was this girl who was a live model as a ghost for a computer game so being a live ghost, she could walk with her long hair covering her face totally. yeah, at the first sight, i was freaked out but it was okay when i realised she was a fake ghost. :) but celine being celine, screamed out loud for some pathetic reasons and clung on moi desperately. there goes moi shirt man.

and obviously, we took a lot of random pics! it was sooooo fun posing for the camera like some idiots. jinghan, upload the pics! :) and celine, i'm laughing moi ass off when you threw the tic tac box at the malay auntie and we ran all the way into scotts to escape some shit. oh about scotts road, the bloody tom yam! spilled! :(

i'm quite excited for thursday! please. surprises. yeah, going to meet those 3 clowns! :) parties!!!!! that's the way man! :) all right! i love the night! it's still young! love love love all the lovable people man! <3

argh!

2005-09-22T15:13:00.000+08:00

heh heh. i blogged yesterday that mdm yaw's eyes going to enlarge when she marked moi chem prac and today miss punitha is going to dissolve my physics prac in some acids to feed mr neo. (:

i screwed up both chem and physics pracs totally man. not only moi titration value for chem prac is totally off tangent, my identification of ions were wrong. physics prac was totally crap by stupid errors made in calculations. there goes the sciences plus moi sciences aren't strong in the first place so they'll definitely pull my L1R5 down majorly! :(

huijun! like this how to go acjc????? -_____- i don't think jjc is going to accept moi as well. lost moi mood to mug for chem tml. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

just to contradict moiself, i shouldn't paint a negative picture since the results aren't out yet. let tears of joy await moi on monday. =]

29th September.

hmmmmmmmmmm

2005-09-21T12:51:00.000+08:00

all right! i'm sure i can pass amaths paper 2 but not very well though but, still pass right? :)

2 more papers to freedom! :) but monday starts, i don't dare to envisage the tears of joy of sadness in class. just hope moi class do well. we put in effort right? :)

heh. huijun asked moi not to aim for acjc cos she claimed i'll be snatching her place. please huijun, our results are not out so you might prolly get 5 distinctions and woohoo! shakes your arse up to the gate of acjc.

all right. i don't know what to blog so end here!

oh ya, my chem prac titration got 0! -_____- due to colourblindness, moi reading is 23.0! i bet mdm yaw's eyes gona enlarged by a thousand. woohoo!

you raise me up

prelims!

2005-09-16T22:53:00.000+08:00

hey! i'm finally using the com after 1 week of prelims. i really need to distress today so i can concentrate better during the weekends. so how was the prelims?

english: enough said. i think i'll fare badly for comphrehension and summary but mr latiff said he'll moderate our marks cos the papers were too beautifully done. it's our compulsory component so why the school set the standard so high?! :(

chem paper 2: i really tried moi best to complete the syllabus to the best i can and this was the 1st time i worked so hard for moi weakest subject but in the end, due to jitters, i didn't do as well as i expected. it was a disappointing attempt man. :(

maths paper 1: i think i'll improve from mid year. moi mid-year only 49/80! -_____-" please let me do well for this paper and put in the the 60 range. :)

ss: venice didn't come out!!!!! :(:(:(:(:( i did both my essays based on sheer memory. sigh sigh sigh.

physics: i didn't really place much hope on this subject so let's just hope i don't hover in the 50 range. :)

i don't want amaths and lit to be together lah! i mean the amaths paper is going to be loaded with those super duper heavy chapters that make it even hard to pull up my paper 1. sigh! the examiner board of bbss sucks man! think the bloody vp should be sacked lah.

but there're good news too! i can deduct 1 point for cca! mr yassin is not such as ass as i thought lah! :) i really want to go the 1st 3 months and see what it's like. striving to go acjc now or poly, as influenced by mr tan?

all right. for now is like this. just nerd nerd nerd nerd nerd and stop being influenced by things that shouldn't be prioritised now! positive friends! they're the one they truly motivate you. :)

i watched longest yard with han(wanzi!) and nigel today so the movie is sooooo nice man! team spirit triumphes, so does friendships! :) caretaker shouldn't die! tsk!

physics physics physics

2005-09-11T00:56:00.000+08:00

hey! :)

jinghan and nigel came to my house today to study with me. nigel really changed a lot. no longer the frivolous guy who cares about playing only and well, he reaps what he sows. so smart can? that guy makes me feel inferior man! -argh-

i can't believe i'm studying physics seriously for the 1st time. i did 2 papers and managed to complete my electricity chapters which is a huge accomplishment to me! there's heat plus light to go but oh well, i'm happy with my present progress. :)

argh...... there's still amaths, emaths and ss. sigh..................................

stay positive stay positive stay positive!

CRAP!

2005-09-08T19:29:00.000+08:00

hey! our prelims had started and there goes the english papers. shall not be happy or sad cos we wouldn't know what'll the final result be right? you cry or rejoice. :) anyway, the rest are following up soon and i'm not fully prepared yet i still waste time here and there. i'm not that concerned about the cut off points but over those subjects i've studied more. people reap what they sow right? please make this happens to me! :)

however, the real test lies in november over a period of 2 weeks so let's work hard! we can do it one! -work hard!- i love history after 2 days of camp. it wasn't very stressful but neither was it fun. made a new friend though! okay lah, not very new. =P beloved lihui or rather weilian. -ahemssssssssss- heh heh heh. we love amusing ourselves in class while leong is talking to herself.

a few more months then new things coming up and of course, abandoning those memories i don't wana keep. since they don't like me, forget it. what for try to be nice anyway? yeah yeah yeah, before you go give that oh whatever face, go fuck yourself. you need to. :)

my hp got new addition of stuffs! songs! :) army of lovers is really very nice! gtg already lah. nerd nerd nerd!

this whole thing is so crazy but i really do't want it to end since it just started. your shivering smses! . . . . . .

argh!

2005-09-07T01:16:00.000+08:00

some petty shits are soooooooooo irritating that they can't think for themselves. what's the use of a brain man, b-r-a-i-n?????

why do i even bother, pretend to be nice?

some people just don't deserve it.

they just suck.

look into the mirror.